rants and ramblings

I wonder what this day holds for me... would it be a good day,a bad one, or same day like the rest? I do hope that this is a good day for i awfully feel so damn bad. I find it funny.... i usually don't have mood swings but then.... there's always a first time.

I'm feeling weird today..It's like my head is hitting against a brick wall (* or is it my heart?) .I want to get through but i'm just too damn stubborn to jump overboard. I want to get through it by crashing the damn wall. It's a challenge and it hurts.So far the wall is still fully intact.... still strong whereas i, i'm beginning to lose hope. My head is hurting.... I'll never get through... I feel so emotionally stressed out and confused. TIME FOR A BREAK Maybe i need to see a movie or read a book. Reading is good.. i think i'm going to read.Read something that would make me cry. Something that has a sad ending. Something that talks about death, tragedies, and ironies. That's what life is all about anyway.

~~with music softly playing, his lips were gently saying..."Honey, i love you". He held me in desperation, i thought it was a revelation and then he walked out... To be fooled is a hurting pain. To be Loved and Fooled is a crying shame~~