There are times when you just want to be left alone.... i'm feeling that way now.
So this is being 24, lolz..... weird. i don't feel anything. Well maybe because this is my worst birthday ever. It's not about the party and all...it's about me, about my so called "LIFE". When i turned 23 last year... i remember getting excited that finally i'm into adulthood..... i'm officially an adult. But now that i've turned 24... suddenly i feel so old. I can sense that life is passing me by without me doing anything productive. Time is running out. I can't beat the time... life they say is not a race, but for me-- it is. A race with youth , with chance, with oppurtunity. Life is a constant battle.. you lose and you win. And when you lose... it sucks!
Now i'm really surprised that kids nowadays wants to grow up real fast. The teens doesn't want to be treated as kids anymore but in fact that's what they are. You can only be young once and be old for the rest of your life. *sigh* Maybe that's why sometimes i'm childish..... i'm holding on to my youth.(*yeah, people thought I'm a retard or something) Adulthood is about weaving your own life. Making your dreams come true. Making and standing by your own decisions.But what is that real scale of adulthood? age? knowledge? experience? Childhood, is a planned stage..( for me at least) whereas adulthood....it's spontaneous. Everything changes with a blink of an eye. It's unpredictable.
So this is being 24, lolz..... weird. i don't feel anything. Well maybe because this is my worst birthday ever. It's not about the party and all...it's about me, about my so called "LIFE". When i turned 23 last year... i remember getting excited that finally i'm into adulthood..... i'm officially an adult. But now that i've turned 24... suddenly i feel so old. I can sense that life is passing me by without me doing anything productive. Time is running out. I can't beat the time... life they say is not a race, but for me-- it is. A race with youth , with chance, with oppurtunity. Life is a constant battle.. you lose and you win. And when you lose... it sucks!
Now i'm really surprised that kids nowadays wants to grow up real fast. The teens doesn't want to be treated as kids anymore but in fact that's what they are. You can only be young once and be old for the rest of your life. *sigh* Maybe that's why sometimes i'm childish..... i'm holding on to my youth.(*yeah, people thought I'm a retard or something) Adulthood is about weaving your own life. Making your dreams come true. Making and standing by your own decisions.But what is that real scale of adulthood? age? knowledge? experience? Childhood, is a planned stage..( for me at least) whereas adulthood....it's spontaneous. Everything changes with a blink of an eye. It's unpredictable.
posted by jaded fool @ 12:37 AM
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