This day is unsual.(*I'm talking about monday--Feb. 26 '01) Academically speaking.... the day is great. I mean we don't have a class in Conflict of Laws...and we had a party--- it's our dean's birthday. I laugh a lot. Then on my second class we didn't have recitation. My professor talked about the EDSA thing again-- the validity of the GMA's presidency. There has been news that the Supreme Court has already voted in favor of ERAP. So where does that leave us? Chaos is in the air.
A funny incident on my way home-- why is that Erap's supporters are staying in front of the Post Office?? They are picketing there with banners and streamers. Don't they know that It's not the Supreme Court? Who will give justice to Erap there?-- the POSTMASTER? oh well... they have their reasons.
Socially speaking, this is day is SHITTY. My friends are having tantrums. =( i feel so damn terrible. I have lost my pare... *sniff* i have this friend over the net-- and we would call each other "pare". We had shared a lot of secrets... and laughs.... and jokes.... *sniff* he told me tonight "Can you really trust someone who just stay in the net like you know, hanggang net lang.. genon". I answered " kasi No show ako?" he replied "yeah" He doesn't understand---- he always would tell me that "it's ok pare, i understand you.." but in the end-- di ren pala. My ate told me-- siguro lahat ng atraso mo nagkapatong patong na." I guess ate is right---- come to think of it, dami ko ngang atraso kay pre ko.... ay di na pala pre. *sniff* It's a terrible feeling -- this feeling that i have now. It's like as if someone died.... and i guess in a way someone did. I just don't know if it would ever be reincarnated. =( The pressure is on me--- but how can i show up when i know that someone holds a grudge against me and it's our first time to meet?!? I've never been in situation like that before nor do i have a plan to be in one. I can tell that it's going to be ackward. =( at least now i know that his badmood originates from me.. and that he doesn't have a problem at all because it is now clear that he is indeed mad at me. Maybe it's better this way. It has to be.
My other friend is Jane-- my bestfriend. =( She is mad at me for not meeting her last week. And i told her that i might not be able to meet her again this wednesday because i have to attend to a meeting on Fri.. and she replied "Cge! ang ganda mo! Unahin mo ang ibang tao kesa sa akin!....grrrrr!" -- I can only go out once a week. I have to make a decision.... which one is more important?! they are both important. But not more important than my sick sister. My ate told me awhile ago Di mo ko love, kita mong me sakit ako-- lakwatsa ka ng lakwatsa...." =( What am i to do? It's a petty thing i know... but i don't want to hurt people. That's what i hate about me--- i'm a damn pleaser. I don't want people to get mad at me. But time will come that you just don't have any choice-- you just have to let them down. Then they will get mad at me for turning them down-- *sigh* I can't remember the last time i felt this bad. I think i'm goin' to bed now, i'm tired of all these.
A funny incident on my way home-- why is that Erap's supporters are staying in front of the Post Office?? They are picketing there with banners and streamers. Don't they know that It's not the Supreme Court? Who will give justice to Erap there?-- the POSTMASTER? oh well... they have their reasons.
Socially speaking, this is day is SHITTY. My friends are having tantrums. =( i feel so damn terrible. I have lost my pare... *sniff* i have this friend over the net-- and we would call each other "pare". We had shared a lot of secrets... and laughs.... and jokes.... *sniff* he told me tonight "Can you really trust someone who just stay in the net like you know, hanggang net lang.. genon". I answered " kasi No show ako?" he replied "yeah" He doesn't understand---- he always would tell me that "it's ok pare, i understand you.." but in the end-- di ren pala. My ate told me-- siguro lahat ng atraso mo nagkapatong patong na." I guess ate is right---- come to think of it, dami ko ngang atraso kay pre ko.... ay di na pala pre. *sniff* It's a terrible feeling -- this feeling that i have now. It's like as if someone died.... and i guess in a way someone did. I just don't know if it would ever be reincarnated. =( The pressure is on me--- but how can i show up when i know that someone holds a grudge against me and it's our first time to meet?!? I've never been in situation like that before nor do i have a plan to be in one. I can tell that it's going to be ackward. =( at least now i know that his badmood originates from me.. and that he doesn't have a problem at all because it is now clear that he is indeed mad at me. Maybe it's better this way. It has to be.
My other friend is Jane-- my bestfriend. =( She is mad at me for not meeting her last week. And i told her that i might not be able to meet her again this wednesday because i have to attend to a meeting on Fri.. and she replied "Cge! ang ganda mo! Unahin mo ang ibang tao kesa sa akin!....grrrrr!" -- I can only go out once a week. I have to make a decision.... which one is more important?! they are both important. But not more important than my sick sister. My ate told me awhile ago Di mo ko love, kita mong me sakit ako-- lakwatsa ka ng lakwatsa...." =( What am i to do? It's a petty thing i know... but i don't want to hurt people. That's what i hate about me--- i'm a damn pleaser. I don't want people to get mad at me. But time will come that you just don't have any choice-- you just have to let them down. Then they will get mad at me for turning them down-- *sigh* I can't remember the last time i felt this bad. I think i'm goin' to bed now, i'm tired of all these.
posted by jaded fool @ 1:17 AM
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