rants and ramblings

decision making sucks

There are times in our lives that we have to make decisions. No matter how crucial or petty the subject matter is.. it is always important to weigh things. We need to think things over very carefully for it'll affect our present and our future. I hate making decisions.. Especially when it concerns my future and me. I made a decision before.. and I stood by it. Defending my stand everytime the subject is brought up. But there are times when I know that it's futile to fight, to defend or even explain my stand. There are even times when I think of my past and regret my actions. When I long for the easy life that I had then when everything was simple. Everything was ok… everything was fine. Today, I have decided that I'll transfer to another school. A not so popular law school so that I'll be able to get my diploma.

I haven't told Jane about it..maybe some other day. Some people may not understand the reasons that I have for transferring [yet again].. All I know is that they are all valuable. My father wasn't that ecstatic when my "ate" (older sister) told him about my decision. My mother was silent. And my ate's very supportive. The new school is old…ugly and not facilitated with things that I got used to in my former school. Right now, all I can see and all I can think of is my DIPLOMA. Adulthood is a lifetime decision-making. You decide where you want to go, where life will lead you. You decide whether you go with or against the flow of this so-called LIFE.