rants and ramblings

crazee

After a few hours of being separated, Jane and I were together again this morning. I accompanied her to visit her in-laws in Sta. Mesa. Thereafter, we went to Robinson's Place and stroll for a while. Not after a few hours of walking have I realized that my umbrella was gone. I'm so stupid, damn… now I got no umbrella! Waaaaa!!

When I was on my way home-- I remember this article I read about the crazy people "children of the full moon" It was a nice article… talking about the life of these people. Made me wonder how they are feeling and came up with the conclusion that they are luckier than I am. It sounds so stupid but it's true. Well… in a way I guess. They do what they want, when they want it, where they want it, how they want it.

There are times that I wish, I can do things without thinking how would that affect me or the people around me. There are times that I wish I didn't feel anything. Love. Hurt. Rejection. Hope. Sadness. Joy. Happiness. Sometimes its better to be Hard as stone. It's when you cover up your real feelings and feel N-o-t-h-I-n-g. There are times that I just want to open my eyes and find beauty in everything that I see and everything that's happening to me. But no matter how hard I try to look at things in a different perspective-- reality is such a painful asshole. In short, life [sometimes] sucks. There are lessons you have to learn the hard way. And those lessons make us very cautious when it comes with dealing with other people. Making it hard to trust and give your faith to someone for fear that later on you'll be betrayed or for fear that same thing will happen. Damn, such a crazy night I'm having… *sigh* it's one of those days… frigging depression attack. One thing I admire the "children of the full moon", they have no fear. I don't know with the rest of them but the ones I've seen-- they don’t fear anything. They live, laugh, cry, cry, laugh, & live. Life is as simple as that.