rants and ramblings

time space warp

There are times when I'm alone that I wish that it's yesterday again…then I wouldn't have to worry about my future. Then I would know what future holds for me. Living in the past… living in hope that someday I would be able to rectify all the mistakes that I have done… and wishing that History didn't repeat itself. Because that would mean only one thing -- I have learned my lesson.

There's a certain phase of my youth that I want to return to and that's when I stayed out in the street and play with kids my age. No inhibitions, no malice, nothing adult only pure honest to goodness fun. It was where the problems in world as well as the worries are left to the adults. And you simply exist to live, to breathe, to eat, and to give inspiration that someday everything will be all right and things will be better. Life was so simple then-- I got no worries with anything except the material things that I want but cannot afford. I was not born with a golden spoon… I didn't play with nice, expensive dolls.. but rather I play with sticks, kites, marbles and softball… I play games that don't require expensive toys. I don't like playing dolls and all those intellectual games when it's so fun to run and sweat and get dirty. The only feminine game that I play is the lutu-lutuan, and we almost burn our neighbors house. I like climbing trees (or at least try to..) and just simply be as boyish as I can get. I play tricks on them, we hit each other on the head.. But I never did get into a fight. Haaaaaaay.. sarap maging bata…

My Nanay went to Sta. Mesa and know what?! My childhood friends there have their own kids already! Some have died.. and some stayed just the same… Waaaaaaaaaaaaah!!! I'm getting old…. Someday, I'll be back in that old place, visit my childhood friends and reminisce. Then I would be able to relive our past and all the good times. ]:)