rants and ramblings

night before valentines

Earlier today, My Nanay asked me to some chore that I don't feel like doing.. But then I had to do it cause my Tatay gave me some money to buy my prepaid card… I did the chore alright.. But I did it with a heavy heart.. It's so hard to do things that you don't really want to do. The muscles of my face ached as I put on a frown.. I find it really hard to breathe and do the things nicely.. I would have done that chore quietly if only Nanay didn’t become a nuisance. I told her that I would do it, once I'm ready for it.. Did she stop? Oh no, everytime I turn and see her she would remind me that I have to do this and to do that… I HATE THAAAAAAAT!! I hate people telling me what to do! I want to do things my way when I feel like it.. Where I feel like it.. How I feel like doing it! I want to take my sweet time! Anyway, I did the chore, mumbling and cursing my noisy neighbor who can't sing properly… darn.

It’s the night before the hearts day.. No, nothing has changed.. My view about this day is quite the same. I know that lovers are excited for tomorrow is a big day. As usual, there's going to be one hell of traffic within the metropolitan area. And now.. as I am listening to my love songs… I remember the past valentine's day that I had… and I remember how much I dreaded this day. You know why? Because on Valentine's day… people would know that I don't have someone special to spend the day with.. It's a good thing that I don't attend school that much-- then, I can escape all the scrutinizing eyes of people trying to break their neck just to see if I'm holding a single flower or if I have some sweets in my bag. It's like people are valuing your worth with the bouquet of flowers you are holding in your arms… and to them nothing is more pathetic than seeing you -- alone, with no flowers or BF tagged on hand. Hmm… Do I envy girls who get to receive flowers on V-day? No, I don't but I do wonder where the hell is the guy that would treat me as a queen. Although I adore flowers, I won't be caught alive holding some on V-day. So, what's the big deal being alone? I guess even if I have someone to spend V-day with, I would spend it at home.. Cooking, Eating, Playing some silly games or just spend the day doing something really crazy. Maybe I can hang him up in our tree and try to shoot him with an airgun.. or I can eat some alive chicken in front of him.. or something to that effect. Some will remember pass loves and feel the pain again.. See?! Valentine's day isn't only bout love-- it's also about pain and realization. Getting brokenhearted once more.. aahhh but broken noses is much better! Promise. There'll be people who'll celebrate the heart's day, alone-- give them a break.. So what if they don't receive flowers or chocolate? So what if they don't have someone special? Would you die because of it? Would it make you richer? Poorer? So in short, Just mind your own fucking business. If you got someone-- well and good for you. Try to make the feeling last and be faithful to all your promises so that next year.. You'll celebrate the Heart's day with the same person. ]:)