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Just the other day, in IRC.. I had an argument. And it's about risks, quitting and love. This person has a knack of turning the tables around; he almost convinced me that- I'm lacking as a woman and a quitter at that. He got the notion that I quit on him, when in truth.. I realized that he doesn't deserve me! I deserve someone better. Hehehe! He was talking about his girlfriend, on how nice she is.. What a wonderful woman she is…how lucky he is for having her --achuchus. And then he goes something like.. "There are women who doesn't really know how to love a man cause they don't really know how". His point of view is that, if you love a man-- you should give your all, disregarding the truth… reality and the facts at hand. He also said that you shouldn't quit on the person… you should stay whether in good or bad times.
This is what I have to say:
Love indeed involves taking a risk. And risk involves getting hurt. However, if you know from the very start that it is a no-win situation; that you would only end up being hurt-- you would cry a river… That one way or another.. You are going to be the one left to mend a brokenheart. Would you still take the risk? Ah.. When do you realize a person is worth it? You would definitely know from the start-- from his ideas, thoughts and his point of views. You would know.. In your heart and in your mind, that this person is worth taking the risk for. Of course, start of a relationship is a risk. Getting involved with a person is always a risk… the question is, are you willing take it a little farther? Doubt it not, I took it before.. Not as if I'm really cynical about getting into a relationship.. But then my situation is always like this: I would get to know the person a little.. Love them and then realize that they are such losers or discover that they are unfaithful bastards. So I let them go. Letting go is definitely different from quitting. Letting go is accepting the fact that it wouldn't work out and accepting that he deserves someone better… cause the best is always saved for last. Hehehe! How can I explain to this egoistic animal that, there are women who are not blinded by sweet talks… there are women who does not jump from one bed to another. Did he expect me to bed him? Hahahah… darn, if that is the case, he expects too much. I do know how to take care of someone special!! It's an inborn talent. If some find me too cold.. Or too buddy-like.. They deserve to be treated that way. I hate quitters. I can accept defeat, though not sweetly cause I'm a sore loser--but I never quit. I know what is right (categorically speaking) & I know when to stop. Maybe that's the problem with me.. I know too much & I think too much. I value every little detail that is coming from other person's mind and heart. I'm wary about lies. I hate liars. Once I caught you lying, don't expect me to just believe you. Your word would forever be held in doubt. . I can be the woman of your dreams (arrgghh.. yikes) or the witch in your nightmare… so either way, I'm a frigging woman!
I told him that I love my friends more than my err.. bf's or ex's (as if) Lolz.. Cause there was a phase in my life that I was able to totally disregard men for the simple reason that I have my friends. And for me, at that time, it was enough. The thing that I love about my friends is the fact that they are the one who encourages me to get involved, they are the ones who are teaches me things about relationships and sex. Seriously, they are the ones who are pushing me to be in a relationship. They just want someone who would take care of me like the way that they do. Hmmm…back to the egoistic tripper and bad jologs man.. I don't care what he thinks.. I know he is a cheat anyway. Hehehe!! I just hope that when the one comes along-- he would be able to bring out the woman in me. Then, we won't be having any problems, cause then-- I would be able to take care of him as he deserve and he got no choice but to love me more! =Þ
posted by jaded fool @ 7:53 PM
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