Saturday, February 05, 2011

daghang salamat cebu




I’ve always thought of myself as a good person so undeserving of all the hard and lonely situations that I get myself into. Just to realize I only got myself to blame. This weekend, I get to reflect on my life. I got a break from worries this effing world wants to bestow upon me.

For so long, I have been a sucker for pleasure and things surreal. For the last two weeks, I got nothing in my mind but my OB to Cebu. It could have been treated like any case I handled, come to Cebu in the morning—conduct my hearing after lunch – and rush to the airport to catch my 5 o’clock flight back to Manila. All in day’s work. That’s how I have been doing it for the last year and it works just fine.

Sometimes opportunities would just present itself for the taking. I have to go to Cebu. After all the stress that I encountered in the past couple of months —I believe that I do deserve this retreat. What an opportune time to reflect on my life, right? I got a free ticket, free lodging and a time to myself. But wait, there’s more! An old friend recently relocated in Cebu, ain’t that great? So I diverted from my usual doings and packed my bags.

I was so ready to be entertained and have a relaxing week before my hearing in Bohol. But work is work. It is important. So for today, I am in this 5-bedroom house by the beach with my camera, laptop and ipod for company. I stay up to catch a glimpse of the sunrise. It was wonderful, just like what I had in mind. I thought I could go back to sleep then but my stomach started to grumble. I tried to ignore it, but the more I try to keep it off my mind--- the more it persists. I am dizzy due to lack of sleep and hunger. When I surrendered to my tummy I went to the kitchen to get a piece of bread and a glass of water. Nothing beats like water theraphy, I am telling you.

And my soul searching went on. The silence is deafening. I can actually run inside the house naked just so I could entertain myself. I just want a company. In the absence of any other living thing in this house, I grabbed my laptop and talked to one of the nicest “new document” I have encountered in my entire life. It accommodated my angst and loneliness just like an old friend.

I wonder if I could go on all day with this seclusion with only water to keep my tummy from grumbling.

I want my sleep and food. I took a bath and try to see if that would lull me to sleep.

At around 11.00 am my tummy won’t be ignored anymore. I had to do something.. the homeowner told me I could ransack the kitchen. I took the pasta from the cupboard and cooked instant carbonara.

2 hours later, I am being picked up by the service vehicle because I snapped and let boredom conquer me.

I am staying now here up north for the night. 4 days, 4 places to crash. What a way of life.

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posted by jaded fool @ 8:16 PM