death sucks
My sister-in-law's grandmother is dying. She is 95 years old. And this incident only reaffirms my hatred of death. They say that you shouldn't be afraid of death and countless times I have said that death is the only absolute freedom. But with that thought in mind, I still find myself afraid of it.
There had been deaths in my family.. And whether it is abrupt or shall I say, slow motion -- the effect is the same. The pain of losing someone is the same, it does not lessen with the knowledge that sooner or later the one that is so dear to you will go away and never will return. The pain and frustration that you won't be able to share your joys, triumphs and happy moments… nope.. it does not come easy. I know deep in my heart that I will have a hard time accepting death. And I will never ever forgive DEATH for taking away someone that is dear to me. I might learn to move on but it does not mean that I have accepted the situation as it is.
Anytime now.. My sister-in-law's grandma would pass away.. She would be missed terribly. I hope that wherever she'll go, the grace of God will be with her through her journey.
posted by jaded fool @ 8:17 PM
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