rants and ramblings

impure thoughts

My lecturer mentioned these words yesterday and I can't help but to jot it down. I know right then and there that it would be a good subject to ponder on. He said that impure thoughts are sins. And i wonder what would make thoughts pure? What does it made of? Cause I think, personally, I have lots of these impure thoughts... and if that is the case-- then I guess I have sinned a lot.

Purity is quality of state of being pure and pure is freedom from something that weakens, vitiates or pollutes. What are these things that weakens -- vitiates and pollutes?

when you remember good memories like touching and kissing and feeling.. When you feel envious bout something-- do they qualify as impure? I think the way you think about it makes the difference. I can ponder on about sex and still the way I think about will make a difference. I can look at it as pro-creation or I can think of it as something bad or malicious. And to think I have this attitude of thinking ways and means to kill a person-- (but i never execute them,ok?). It's a way of releasing my emotions especially so if I was really hurt. There are even times that I'm able to make stories out of them-- but never did i assume that these ideas are impure. For me- they help me accept that I've been hurt and it helped me move on. It's a process for me.

I had impure thoughts and I know that I will have it once in a while as long as I live.