rants and ramblings

hidden grudge

This entry is particularly about hidden grudges and what happens when you don't let it out. I borrowed the laptop of my kuya (i'm using it now.. and it confirmed my desire to have one..) anyway, my sister in law asked me to get some paper from the laptop bag. So, when i got home I immediately searched the bag which contained numerous garbage. On particular garbage caught my eye-- what do you know, its a letter from my sister in law and his kids. I know that it's not my business to sneak into the letters but i just had to take a peek on what my sister in law would blab about us.

The letter started with the usual how do you do's.. then it was followed by a complaint regarding her credit status... then followed by a complaint because allegedly my nanay is asking for an increase... then it is followed by another complaint, this one regarding my ate and the expenses about my kuya's kids. My sister in law asked my brother where her salary goes... along with the innuendos about buying the kids stuff and then later on whining about it. Likewise, I read something about me-- she was asking my brother where I put my money. ( the letter was undated so i am not sure whether it was during the time when i don't have a job or not). Then came a sermon which practically tell my kuya that he's a married man and has kids to support.. and it is not his responsibility to give his parents allowance knowing that they need it too. Then, she said that "hindi maasahan" (referring to me and my sister)and that kuya should allow her to work as well in order to help. She said that whenever they stay here, we dont do anything and let them do the household chores... she is likewise whining that my sister is asking my mother to do errands knowing she's not feeling well.

This is what I have to say. I will not confirm or deny anything. But the truth is I really got pissed off. WHY? Because to even think that we are the burden here is quite unfair. They come to our house, eat all our food..they leave and leave the house inside out.. my parents practically serve her and the kids on hand and foot. A thousand bucks is nothing compared to the hardships that my parents have gone through to put us in a good school. Konting utang na loob naman, I don't think a thousand bucks is enough when they practically make a driver out of me and my father. O, kahit wag na ako. Hindi mapapantayan ng kahit na gaanong kalaking pera ang utang na loob namin sa mga magulang namin. And regarding our money, you don't know our finances so don't fucking judge us. Ikaw nga, naririndi ka sa mga utang mo-- kami pa? Lastly, refrain from leaving your shits laying around... one way or another, it is destined to be found,asshole.