feast of the jesus nazarene
before having my lunch.. i was able to look out the window and saw a sea of people. The procession of the Jesus nazarene was on its way to Quiapo from the Quirino Grandstand. I was teary eyed... knowing how much pain is inside my heart... i prayed.. I prayed hard... asking him to take care of nanay..tatay..my family... asking him to take care of guia... asking him to make things better.. i asked to be better... to be strong..
but my heart asked for something else.
Deep down.. it was asking for her. Which I know is impossible.. it's just not going to happen, i know guia too well.. strong-willed.. prideful.. free spirited. nothing can restrain her.. not even my love.
Thoughts of her still fill me every day.. our memories.. and the ugly reality that love sometimes do end. I miss the idea of kissing someone..holding someone's hand.. looking into someone's eye and in the absence of any word-- tell that person "i love you". I miss our laughter--our childish bickerings... the tears we shared when we we're hungry. i miss the love that we used to share.
I don't know how long will it take for me to forget her... but i do hope that tomorrow is going to be a brighter day.
posted by jaded fool @ 1:31 PM
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