attorney IV
So yeah.. i got the position. I had to write the other agency for the withdrawal of my application. I still don't know the functions and the duties of an Atty. IV, all i know is that they're the next in rank to Atty. V. Hehehehe.. So anyway, since Elineth has not yet come down from the 7th floor office, I have to endure all the responsibilities that this position entails:
1. Attend meetings.
2. Assist my boss since he's the officer in charge now.
3. Attend to our division.
4. Be a TWG member.
5. Be one of the focal persons for the Department Legislative Liaison Office (for our office)
6. Draft decisions.
Inspite of my promotion (yeah right..) I still feel sad.. because I can't share it with my Nanay. I miss her more and more each day... and I still wonder why it happened the way it did.. when it did. Sometimes, i still question God.. what's the purpose of taking my Nanay away from us...is he punishing us? Is he punishing me? I think hard everytime--- and I could not come up with a satisfying answer. most of the time I feel anger toward God, myself at circumstances.. I can very well blame a lot of people. I just feel angry and I guess most of it originates from the fact of being lonely. Her pictures make me cry... each time I see her handwriting.. everytime I see places that we've been to.. when I remember our times together.. these would always make me wail. Shedding of tears that doesnt seem to end. Tears brought by loneliness, grief and yearning.
I'm afraid that I will forever feel this loss.. that inspite of all achievements.. deep down I would be still be sad and yearning.
posted by jaded fool @ 7:42 PM
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