cranky
i am cranky today.
i seem to have lost the patience I exude. i blame my current mood on lack of rest. it was a very unrestful night. yeah, i slept alright but my mind was wide awake! so i felt tired when i finally get out of bed. you know how much i adore sleeping-- so this phase of restlessness is giving me the creeps.
i argued with ate cause she's trying to ruin an overtime (work)that i set a month earlier. the darn work was rescheduled because i had to bring them (her and tatay) to the doctor for their check-up. now, she wanted me to cancel my schedule because she has somewhere to go (fuck it!). Lakwatsera daw ako. ang kapal ng mukha.
I felt like everything is going wrong today. I tried really hard to get to the happy side--- but my mind is not cooperating. I hate it when I lose control of my emotions or when I cannot demand my brain to think in a certain way.
But I do realize something-- and that is my work is one of my happy places. I felt happy when I got here. It felt safe. But of course, I'm still struggling to tip the scale. I don't want to go out of my cubicle unless this crank spell wears off. I hope tomorrow is a better day. Really...
Labels: family, God is good, moments, work related angst
posted by jaded fool @ 1:20 PM
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