rants and ramblings

Thank God, Pope Francis arrived safely in Vatican. Nope, I did not see him personally. I watched everything happened on the tube. Just when everybody wants to go to Manila, I decided to pack my bags and go hibernate.

But something happened in me.

As I watch him arrive, as I hear him speak. My heart listened. I realized that I'm doing very poorly in my spiritual life. Yes, I always pray...but I know now that it's not enough. I want to do something.. I want to be part of something big. I have been living in a small, limited world.

When Pope John Paul II died. It seems I relied on myself for my spiritual nurturing. Yes, we hear mass (occasionally)  but listening to the word without any action is just incomplete. What I am doing is not enough. When I heard Pope Francis speak.. he spoke with my heart, he made me understand that all senses must work harmoniously. Speak Well, Feel Well and Do Well.  I will keep on dreaming. I pray that I will never lose the desire to dream. 

Do not worry Papa Franciscus, I will do my best. I will keep searching and with the guidance of the Joseph, Mary and Jesus, we will succeed.

Thank you for your time Pope Francis, May God protect you and keep you. We pray for your health and long life. We love you.

Labels: God is good, love, moments, my thoughts exactly, prayer, relationships

It's almost 2015. I am obliged to make this summary cause I haven't been writing the whole year. I hope it changes in the coming year. I have a lot to be thankful for in the year 2014, for my friends and family.

Early this year, I was surprised to receive a complaint filed against me. It was filed by a losing party charging me with issuing an Order that is unlawful. I lost the drive to work... all I wanted was to run away. Get away from here and escape from the injustice they took upon me. I'm thankful for my friends who took the time to prepare my answer and to check on my position paper. I am also thankful for the support of my co-workers who took time to photocopy my annexes and to print all those paper. To this day, I am still praying for those people who wished to do me harm. May God touch theirs hearts and enlighten their minds.

I declined to take over the office cause I would not want my weekends and time alone to depend on my boss and deadlines. But I am searching for something new and enriching.

This year, I got to plan and execute projects and be literally be a one woman team..from administrative work to lecturer. all in one. I get to visit places such as Taal Heritage Town, Cagayan de Oro, Quezon (Lucban, Tayabas and Sariaya), Legazpi (yes, i met Mayon Volcano) and Baler, Aurora. I also got the chance to re-visit places like Davao, Surigao and La Union.






I am thankful that tatay and ate's health improved. I just hope ate will be able to financially liberate from her debts.  Kuya and his family are doing fine in CA. I guess what I am pushing for in 2015 are any of the following: 1) travel outside of the country  (kahit saan); 2) visit Batanes; 3) get a house (wahaha); 4) get a US Visa; 5) get a grand videoke machine; 6) continue to Zumba; 7) provide for my Tatay and Ate; 8) be healthier; 9) work harder; 10) have fun!

While I thank 2014 for being a good year, I hope 2015 will be a stable and better year not only for me.. but for you as well. :)

Happy New Year, Blogger!

Labels: desires, family, God is good, moments, travel, work related angst

Change is the only permanent thing in the world. 

Labels: family, God is good, moments, relatuonships

I hated her for breaking my heart. I hate her more for breaking yours. -me

Labels: moments

I hate being sick. :( 

Labels: moments

I've always stood strong. My co-workers said i don't yield to stress as i would always be smiling and laughing at most difficult and challenging times. But i do have my moments of weakness.. It's that time when a hug or a simple reassurance that everything will be alright matters the most. It is when i acknowledge that i am not ok and someone would be there. To offer an ear, a hug or just to be strong for me. 

Labels: moments

find your best friend

I've always felt that the best marriages are between people who are best friends. Having that foundation is everything. The advice I give to others is that you should always look for your best friend, because things could flourish and lead to something you might have never expected. It may actually take you by surprise that what you've always looked for might be right in front of you.

-- quoted from yahoo.


aww...sweet. :)

Labels: dreams, God is good, life, love, moments, relationships, winner

throwback monday

I opened my mail. i looked into the folders and i found a lot of this in there. it made my heart melt.. made me remember how in love we were.. how naive  and how it all end up here. i am posting this just because it made me remember. come take the journey with me as i re-live a part of my life that would always take my breath away.

baby tat ko...

there is never a day, nor a night that i don't dream of you..

never a minute that i don't think of you..

never a second that i don't breathe for you..

i believe that there will never be a second that i won't love you..

never be a minute that i'd look not for you.. 

never be day, nor a night that i won't long to be beside you...

you've given me a fuller and much better life..

i could not ask for anything more than what you give me--the happiness and contentment in the heart is so much more than what the whole world could amount to...

you are the best thing in my life.. my special angel.. i love you so much tat... --

i hope you will remember how good it felt, how good we were together and how your words would always make me feel beautiful.  it is sad we have to grow apart, meet new people and live our lives separately. but always remember this, no matter what-- you will always be my greatest. happy may 20. i miss you. i really do.

Labels: ikaw kasi, moments, my thoughts exactly, relationships

gusto ko

... sabihin mahal kita.
...malaman mo masaya ako kapag kasama kita;
...ibalewala ang bukas twing hawak ko ang kamay mo;
...ang nararamdaman ko kapag nasa tabi kita.

Gusto ko... Pero hindi yun ang gusto mo.

Lilipas ang oras. May isang lilisan at may isang maghihintay.

Kung kelan magbabalik,  walang nakakaalam.

Bawa't araw.. Bawa't hudyat ng pagkakataon. Inaasam. Umaasa.

Iba ang gusto mo sa pilit na ginugusto ko.

Gusto ko lang.

Labels: ikaw kasi, moments, relationships

time is my friend

Finally a time to write. I have been neglecting my blog due to various reasons. My kuya and his family moved to Calgary, my work demands and personal ekeks.

I woke up today with a realization that time has always been a friend to me. For the longest time, i considered time as my enemy. I always felt short-changed. But if you will start to really think about it, i have a lot to thank time for. It helped pass the bar examinations. It let me enjoyed numerous important milestones and gave me memories to treasure. It taught me to value attention and effort in all  things. Finally, it taught me to appreciate time of others.

That is why i go to meetings early. It's one way of showing interest and importance to others. Also, a lot is done by going to work early than staying late. Paperworks are a breeze if it became a routine, so   allot a specific schedule for it. Take a second of your time to check on your people, ask them how they are doing with their specific project/assignment. I'm not saying that i've turned into a good co-worker, what i'm saying is that invest your time effectively and always, if possible, with human touch.

After all these years, finally time and i have conciliated.

Labels: moments, work related angst

nearly a month

hello blogger.. almost a year when i was last with you. last night, my co-worker and I went to this chinese store in Binondo, she's known be a feng shui master. we went it and approached her. she asked us to write down our names and our birthdays.

she's said not so nice things about me... like i should take of my health.. should not trust too much.. blah blah blah... then gave me some charms. i did pay 1k for those. sucker ako no? so anyway, i got me a buddha that i have to tickle once a day..

my fate is what i make it.

Labels: astrology, health, moments, work related angst

baon

loots!

last week, i went to work having these in my bag. hehe. It's my first time to have cuervo.. and i discovered that I am allergic to it. sucks...so i didn't finish the whole bottle.. I brought home the remainder, stock in in the cabinet to await my return. hehe.

kampai! :)

Labels: God is good, life, moments, self-love, winner

2012: my year ender

It's that time of year again when I count the blessings that i recieved for the year.. I would say this year has been good to my career cause i finally grew up professionally and i value my job more.I travelled a lot both in my work and leisure. my family and i get to see Palawan. Relationship-wise.. still longing for my long lost love.. broke up finally with P.. And decided to move on from what G and I were having, whatever taht is. I met someone who adores me like crazy.. but i have to wait till 2013 to see how it'll go.

there were a lot of catastrophes that made my heart break. this year i lost both Lola's.

no matter what, i am still thankful that i get to live the year..met new friends.. and accomplished a lot. To you God, you have always been wonderful to me. thank you so much for always having my back. i love you.

Labels: family, God is good, just venting out, love, moments, prayer, self-love, travel, winner

surprise!

This arrived today. Colors that are sweet and affectionate.

“I am nothing special, of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough..” ― Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook

Labels: God is good, love, moments, relationships, self-love, winner

happy 68th Nay!

It's my number 1 woman's birthday today. She would have turned 68 if she were alive. There would no parties cause that's just the way she is.. and for sure, She would probably visit Nazareno and cook Pancit Canton for us and the neighbors to feast on.

It's been 5 years. There's still no party today.. not even a pancit canton for her birthday. But I will be in Quiapo Church, praying for my Nanay. Thanking the Lord for letting me have a wonderful not so perfect Mother. I know I would not be the way I am if were not for my Nanay.

It still breaks my heart that she's no longer here to celebrate life with us or to spend holidays with us. But wherever I go, whatever I do-- my Nanay would always be in my heart. She will forever be my no. 1 woman. She will forever influence me with my actions, she will forever be reflected in my decisions. For that, I am truly thankful.

Nay, Happy Birthday.

Labels: family, God is good, love, moments

transition and winners

I have just finished a 4-day training on Supervisory Development Course. I had so much fun learning! I am thankful that I was nominated by my boss. hehe. During the first day we were asked to identify 3 winners in our lives. These are the people who have made an impact or influenced you. Thinking very hard, I chose my Parents, Jane and other closefriends) and Romeo (my boss). Once you identified your winners, you have to identify what aspect of your life they influenced (family, work, social..etc..etc) and the qualities that you love about them.

Nanay and Tatay, of course being my parents-- they have influenced my most of my life. the qualities that i identified are: hard-working, patient, nurturing, mentor, loving, friend, provider and protector. For Jane and my other friends.. i identified that they understand me, and accepted me unconditionally, they are my mentor and protector as well. Romeo(and my previous bosses).. for their hard work, patience and ability to rise to the challenge. 

After the training, my challenge is to inspire the people i work with and be a winner to others. To my winners, I cannot thank you enough.

Labels: family, God is good, moments, relationships, winner, work related angst

stupid

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Labels: ikaw kasi, moments

bye nanay

so you decided to leave today. thank you nay for your life.. and for giving me the best mother in the world. we're not as close but do know that i have loved you to the best of my abilities. it may not be as intense as what my cousins have shown you.. but in my heart, i have always loved and respected you. please give Nanay Aba a hug from me and tell her I miss her so. I love you nanay miling, I may have not told you this but i did love you.

Labels: family, love, moments

fly away

i flew out of manila last saturday with the G. After all these years, it was our first time to fly together. Despite the hassles and obstacles, we let our stubbornness rule us. We did a lot in a very short time.. met with old friends and family, checkin' out Sam and picking out a color for her, transfer her other things from one place to another, and eat out in between. To top it all, we went out saturday night and had some beer. Although she's busy with stuff, i am content just to be in the same room with her. and yes, with her around.. i am quiet. i am at peace.

Labels: God is good, love, moments, my thoughts exactly, relationships, travel, winner

thoughts in my head

It would have been nice having someone who would do everything just to be with you. This has been ringing in my head the whole day.. And each time, I always give a deep sigh. Not of relief but a sigh of impatience. When will I ever find that one person this universe had created for me? What if I already met that person and let the chance passed me by? That would really suck. Big time. I feel time is running out as if im in a race or something. Whatever it is that my heart is longing for, I hope itll get to me soon enough. Before I give up and surrender. I am ready for it. Come find me.

Labels: love, moments, my thoughts exactly, relationships