In session
I know whatever i am going through is just a phase. A few days more without anything from the G would make me get over this. I should stop reading old mails. Reading our mail reveals that it is a cycle of friendly hello, arguments, silence and then we do it all over again. I just cant understand me at all. This feeling.. This sense of yearning. It subsists in my core.
I need to vent it out.. I needed someone to shake me from these limbo that i made for myself so i talked to E. it didn't do me any good. I have many questions that i want answers.
Subtly, the answer came when i'm in my most vulnerable position and it crossed my mind that to wish for g and i to be together (in my illusion) is selfish. Paano nalang yung mga tao na nagmamahal sa amin. Regardless of how much i want to be with her-- it will boil down to the fact that she cant be mine and i will just have to sacrifice this love so she can have a quiet life.
I guess sacrifice is a bigger form of love.
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posted by jaded fool @ 9:03 PM
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