betrayal
True, secrets are bound to come out. One way or another-- one is bound to discover. I did discover something yesterday... i discovered that I was right all along. I was right when I got the "itch" that lies have been said. I discovered that unfaithfulness was exercised. It was both hurtful and relieving. I got hurt cause I was taken for a fool and I was relieved that it was not entirely my fault after all. Yes.. I may have been amissed of my major obligations and duties but it does not give you the right to look for another while your "relationship" is still on going or on the rocks.
So many lies have been said to fit your side of story-- I never did lie.. I never thought it would be done against me. Suddenly-- everything that happened to me.. and to us, was labeled "LIES". Know what I mean? Well.. I guess, the only truth for me now is the period between September 2003-May 2004. In the real sense, that's the time faithfulness was observed..so I guess, yun lang ang totoo.
Was it worth it?
At first I thought it was -- I really am in love and as I have mentioned in my entry-- I have chosen the one I love irregardless of the pain. But when I get to hear the story of the other party. I feel blessed-- Blessed cause I didn't lose myself in the way that she did. She would be broken-- literally, if they broke up. She would be left with nothing. She did gave her all. It's just so unfair that we both have been lied to-- it's just so unfair that we were betrayed. Nevertheless, I forgive Angel for betraying me and for lying to me... And I would like to ask her forgiveness for all omissions I have done against her. And I do wish her and Carms a peaceful life. I would like the three of us to become friends. And i'm saying that from the bottom of my heart--
Hmmm.. what else.. I'm glad Angel is in good hands. She's well taken care of. As to Carms, she thinks I'm cool. Ain't that sweet?!
posted by jaded fool @ 6:46 AM
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