on an afternoon like this
i opened my memory box and recall my childhood.. my old friends, people i love that have passed on and things that i used to do when life was not yet this complicated.
life was hard but it was simpler. being a child, its all about play, toys and friends. decision-makings are left to the adults and your concept of love is limited to family relations. it was that time when the feeling of infatuation makes every daydream worth doing and believed that life can be a fairy tale.
When one grows old -- life becomes more complicated. responsibilities pile up and sometimes, we get confused between what we need and what we want. people expects you to decide for yourself (which really makes your life more complicated! swear!) and your concept of love expands to having someone to call your own and spending eternity with that person. love is a weird drug.
don't get me wrong, i enjoy being an adult. i enjoy having that freedom and capacity to do whatever i want. but sometimes, it gets too tiring that i just want to get away from it all. i know some people accuse me of being too childish or immature for my age. and recently, i discovered that yeah-- romantically speaking, my emotional equation is younger than my numerical age. i can't seem to meet the EQ of those 30++s. Of date, i haven't met a 30++s who is actually willing to play daytona with me in the arcade. ewan. weird ako.
the child in me lives on..
posted by jaded fool @ 3:15 PM
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