Tuesday, March 18, 2008

how it feels like



i've done these before..asking myself how it feels like be working again. since i moved out of my old office.. i decided to give it another try.

to work in a new environment?
-- its exciting and scary to be working in a a new environment. hope that i'd be able to adjust to my voluminous workload.. and i do hope that i'd still be able to have fun inspite of all the paperworks to be done.

i know i'd be learning a lot from this job. and as always, when there is good pay.. there is a lot of work.

as of the moment, i have 10 cases waiting for me (with deadlines at that.) but I will try my best to deliver. i will! really!!

to meet new people?
-- i like meeting new people. and i believe that except to a few-- i can really be friendly and accomodating. i would like more friends and connections of course (for future references.. haha!)

to move out of your comfort zone?
-- i miss my old office, which is not far from where i work now. but the thought of not seeing familiar faces every morning breaks my heart. i do wonder if they miss me the way i miss them. i miss my friends.. my old cubicle.. my old but reliable, virus infected computer... and my laid back life.

to create new dreams?
-- dreams.. dreams.. i still have the old ones.. same old dreams that i had when i was still a little girl and addicted to fairy tales.

to set new goals?
-- my new goals include, finishing all these cases. clearing my table of any kind of paper. get a new laptop probably. get healthy. live a healthy life. love. live.

not think of her?
-- yeah.. i know you would say-- "there she goes again. yapping.. blah blah blah..". my professional life took hold of my thoughts that i have not thought of her until a few minutes ago. I looked out the window and wonder where could she be.. and how she's doing.

i push people to move on with their lives after a failed relationship.. yep.. i push them until they give up in exasperation. until they cry foul. and honestly, i wish i can do the same to myself. wish i can push myself to totally let go of everything that we were and accept what we have become. i need to embrace it. breathe it. and do u know what the sad part is? it's when you realize that no matter how hard you try.. that inspite of it all.. you are still a little in love.

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