hay lord..
i know it's my fault.. i know i have been remissed of my duties at work. my absences are incomparable... is it my fault that i'm way too addicted? haaayy..
my attention was called because of my absences + very poor drafts... i'm so burntout with work. on one hand, i just want to laze around and feel the air against my face.. and be where i want to be. on the other, i need the moolah so i can laze around and feel the air against my face..in short, i need this job.
but the bottom line is.. im not happy with work anymore. i want a new environment.. i want to start anew. to be somewhere. to rebuild my self-esteem (which had been trampled upon because of that ef). to prove that i can do better. to earn more and live more.. and tire less. yes, i want that life.
i don't know if im ashamed or paranoid. i feel so isolated.. like suddenly nobody likes me in this effin office. not even my good old computer. shit.
the good things about today are the fact my lecture turned out great (in my own opinion), a free sandwhich + rice meal and an umbrella.
on the tip of the cake is the fact that i get to talk to P and knows she'll be alright. *crosses her fingers*
hay lord.. i need a new job. please give me one that pays good, a lot of fun and i can manage my own time.
Labels: just venting out, moments, work related angst
posted by jaded fool @ 3:02 PM
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