rants and ramblings

think about this

it is true that pain erases love. for many months now, i felt myself falling out... sometimes i think everything was just a part of a devious scheme. along the way, i learned that respect is very important. it is something as equally important as love. when a person respects you-- they accept you for who you are, and somehow love will eventually grow out of it. that's how it works.

the problem is i let them rob me of my self-respect. although i still believe in love and the colors that it brings, i also learned that love alone will not make you happy. :p indeed, love can be shown in a thousand of ways.. and sometimes, when you are just unlucky, you would feel love in the most painful way.

sometimes we are left with no choice. it is either you do it or you hurt someone. sometimes when it is really shitty, its either you do it or you do it.

my life has not been easy this past two years. i have been subjected to a lot of abuses: verbal, mental and emotional. But i have to act like what a grown up should and face things on my own. i have to be strong for myself or else suffer the rest of my life in a mental institution. i believe that i have never shown strength and courage of this magnitude before. but as a human, i grow tired. i get weak and weary. it is during these times that I miss my Nanay the most. I want to know what she had to say on these matters.. i want her hug and her reassuring smile that things will be okay.

guess its true that selfishness is the other side of love. guess which side i'm on.

Labels: just venting out, love, relationships