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Im in tugegarao tonight. Been thinking of the G. Sabi nya we'd text this morning cause I should know the reason why. And I do. It just that she did not contact me. She just disappeared. I tried not to text her but unfortunately, I texted her thrice today. It left a bad taste in the mouth cause i'm encountering a very familiar emotion. It can't be.. And my sister said I should not expect when I told her the G hadn't contacted me.
Oh well.. Guess i'll be going back to susan.. Though I read everyday, I think I need her more tonight.
G, I miss you a lot and I know you have a lot going on for you. Please forgive me I sometimes wish you're mine. The feeling of it leaves me breathless, content and happy. I know you don't need me in your life and I am trying very hard to be better. Totoo. I want to be better so I can finally be worthy. Ewan.. I think alcohol is doing this.. I can still clearly remember you refusing to talk about love. But dear, I do love you. Even at times when I wanted to hate you-- I still love you. Everynight, I regret the decisions I made and wish so hard na sana ako na lang.. Na sana ako na lang yung mahal mo. Gusto ko malaman mo na minahal kita, minamahal kita at alam ko, mamatay at mabuhay man ako ulit.. Alam ko na mamahalin pa rin kita. Please forgive me for feeling this way. I never want to tell you this.. I dont have the courage to do that and I don't think I could take rejection again.
Sana madali magmahal.
posted by jaded fool @ 11:39 PM
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