rants and ramblings

for the better life

I always made it a point to read at least two articles in a day.. I would have read more if only I had more time. Reading helps me to get on with my day with a full realization that this is the only way I could get my old self back. Of course most of the day my head is filled with work and it is only when I am idle that I get to think about my relationship.

it is normal to have the urge to make contact especially if I had a lot of things to say. Why do I accept her apologies when it will surely recur. Susan was right, it was fear to deal with grief. I do not want to go through the process and accepts the temporary soothness of a "sorry". I was not ready to accept the fact that one of us had to go. And I did get tired of the cycle. Monthly.. Yearly.. Just like a song in a repeat mode.

I must remember to be good to me always and to learn how to ignore pleas for help. I want that out of my system. The urge to save someone caused me a lot. Besides, I maybe a rockstar, but I am no superhero. That's the truth.

Cheers to my life. :)

Labels: relationships, self-love