Thursday, February 09, 2012

1 day at a time



day 1 is officially done. and i just need to pat myself for doing a good job. i literally struggled this morning in bringing my sun sim.. at the back of my head i want her to be sorry... to literally run after me.. but after a while, i asked myself.. is that what i really wanted? and the answer is no. i want to experience new things and i would not have that by doing the same thing. susan is really a great help. it processed my emotions and made me understand what i am going through. Of course, there is work which kept me busy the whole day.

i presided the deliberation on the labor code review today and i got feedbacks that i did a pretty nice job handling the flow of the discussion. at least there is one factor in my life that is blooming at the moment.. and i am grateful for that.

i also got a message from the G, reprimanding me for seeing P. i replied and went on with my day. I got 2 messages from P which i totally ignored. I just want to focus my time and energy on something that would appreciate me.

Of course when it is time to go home, i come home to a sad heart and there goes the questions again. I drove these thoughts away cause im tired from today's deliberation I just might find myself crying again. I already started my day crying.. i don't want to end it that way. I am sad of course, but i'll live and someday when everything has been forgiven and forgotten--- these things just wont matter.

Also, a friend invited me to go to Tagaytay this saturday afternoon. :) such a great opportunity to unwind from a week of tedious work and emotional havoc. I can't wait to get better and I am excited to meet the new me. Cause I am really banking on what susan said.. that once i am better, better people will surely come my way. :)

I am ending my day one with a lesson that I learned today: Forgive but give no chances.

I can do this.

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