rants and ramblings

sigh sigh sigh

ok, i finally got the chance to view the surprsie made by my bestfriend. isn't she the best? she made me cry! waaaaaaaaaah!! now what kind of person would not miss her when she is so sweet and so fucking intelligent! i know life would not be the same without her near me.. without seeing her..Things would start to change, i know it is inevitable but change can only be delayed. sooner or later we got to face it. making us better or otherwise. For years i have depended on Jane everyday of my life. i can't really express what i'm feeling right now.. all i know is that a very special person in my life is going away. and i'm not sure if after all the changes in our lives-- we would be still the same. I'm really not good at dealing with changes. not when you have spent 8 years of your lives together. As painful as it may seem -- i do wish that she'll be able to find new friends and keep her stay worth the while. i'm going to miss her so much.

i can feel that my world will stop on tuesday. I haven't thought of Wednesday or the days following her leaving. painful as it is for me.. imagine the pain that my bestfriend will go through. Living in a country without knowing anybody except her husband and his family. I do hope that she'll be strong to hang on and i do pray that she'll be happy half the globe away from me. Needless to say, i do love her. She is everything that I am not.. i guess that's why we are a great team. what i lack-- she supply! i do love u jen! Papa should take care of you or else...... hehehe!