rants and ramblings

samu't sari

hello blogger world!! so how is everything doing?? hmmm.. got so many things in my mind right now.. frustrations, prayers... my future.. trials and of course, my hopeful triumphs. Basically, we were able to smooth things out-- meaning... we are back together.

Still my mind is full of thoughts.. about me.. about her.. my family..work.. health.. money... and decision making.

Me. Come september of this year-- i'm going to face another challenge that would define my life. And I'm very much worried about how I feel about my relatives. I'm getting frustrated on their greed and love for money. I'm feeling myself drifting away... losing affection... and respect. To me, all that matters to them is money-- not even family and love. I have this earnest desire to take my family away from here... to be somewhere else.. to be in a place where they could not harm us. I am afraid that they'll they us down with them. I could not let that happen. I will not let it happen.

Her. We are having a problem with regards to her health.. She's so stressed out from work that right after recuperating..she is again sick of something else. Tsk. I got so delighted by her decision to go back to school...and I know she knows that I believe so much in her and her capabilities that I know.. soon.. she'll take on the world.

My family. Well.. in relation to my frustration... I just could not believe that Ate Heisen will do it to Etong. Granted she has the reputation of a player when she was younger. But then I thought-- married life and motherhood will change her. It seems that I am wrong. I pity her husband and her daughter. Similarly, Ate has this problem with her friend who abuses her kindness. I hate this person so much.. but I did not have the time to talk to ate about it. Boyet is such a parasite. The nerve of this person to ask my ate for ANYTHING... Ang kapal ng mukha... Sometimes, I chanced on reading some of his messages for ate.. and I feel sad. Because, How could this person treat my ate that way!? When she has been so nice to him and his kids? How could ate bear such treatment? I love my ate so much and it pains me to see her being abused by this Parasite... this user .. this good for nothing son of a bitch. I guess if i could not talk to ate.. I'll just write her a letter. i love you ate.. don't be afraid to grow old, I'll take care of you....