on and on
i think i'd start this entry with a quote:
When it rain, it pours.
the problems remain unresolved.. the only thing that changes is the fact that new problems or "old" problems resurrect and added up. It is really driving me crazy. This is something new to me-- this is where I have to admit that I am not as strong as I would like to be.. that somewhere, somehow and in some ways-- I have to learn to ask for help.
Things will work out, i say to myself... i know my Nanay would not forsake me. Help is on the way, I just have to learn how to get it... or where to get it for that matter. I will be debt-free!! and I'd go back to school, see the world, visit places and LIVE.
I hope the new salary increment would be enough to settle all my obligations. I am tired of paying off loans.
well, in response to G's shout-out in my wall..I've come to accept things as they are.. as well as the fact that we are actually meant for someone else.. anyway, what we are now are results of our own decisions. Nobody but us to blame.. Of course, I also have toaccept the individuality of each and every one.. Really, i think acceptance is the key. It's just hard to recognize empathy and concern given in a different medium but i'll learn. :) True, we had that assuring embraces and we let it grow cold. too late to play chicken and eggs now. I just needed a good cry and slam on the face... it hurts but i did learn. remarkable huh?
on a lighter note, i recently talked to a high school classmate. Surprisingly, she said I was shy when we were still in high school.. she likewise said I am "mabait" and I helped her a lot in our English subject. Of course, it was flattering but honestly, I do not remember the things she said. But considering that they are nice, they're most welcome! =D Just another proof that people do change.. I am no longer shy, but i believe I am still "mabait" and helpful.
It's monday today, we got a new secretary. I pray for my boss' promotion... so we can work in a freezone! Hehehe!
Labels: ikaw kasi, just venting out, relationships, work related angst
posted by jaded fool @ 2:49 PM
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