heavy heart
Everytime I see the old workplace at the tube-- i felt a tinge of envy. I don't like being envious. It is so unlike me. But when I see those darn faces -- I ask myself if I am that unqualified to be re-hired. `uck them all..
Sometimes, I ponder the what could have beens of my life with a heavy heart. And ask how come they get the better half of life? I know I am being ungrateful again-- but I can't help myself. I made bad decisions and now I am paying for them.
How does that song go?
"If only I can turn back time---"sadly, there's no turning back only moving on. I hope in time, I can watch the television without feeling sad and envious. I just don't like those feelings. Hmmm 4 days have passed, still no news bout the "bummer" interview last monday. I hope things will start to get better for me.
I know He will make it better for me.
posted by jaded fool @ 9:51 AM
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