reasoning
Having been so confused on what step to take. I have asked the people close to me on what to do. Basically, they said that the answer is in my hands. I determine what I am capable of. Now the big question is whether I am ready or not…
Being truthful to myself, I know that I have learned a lot during the past 3 months of reading. I have understood things I didn’t understand before. How come I am feeling this way? Am I in a dilemma? hmmm.. Yes, I am in a personal dilemma.
As I have said before, my mind is saying something my heart does not agree of. Usually, I would start to think that I could do it only to get scared at the end. I don’t know what’s ahead of me. I am feeling terrified.
Judy said that I ask God to direct me. It was the answer that I was waiting for. Well, it may not have solved my confusion but it made me calm. I know now that when I ask for a sign or when I bargain with God— my faith is losing its grip. I am losing my faith in God.
I have asked God to direct me and in time, I know all my actions will be directed by Him for he knows my weaknesses and strengths. He knows what to do with me.
Thoughts were whispered in the winds… blowing slowly in my mind, feeding my soul. Reassuring me that I should not fear—for everybody will leave but he will not forsake me. Everything will come at the right time.
posted by jaded fool @ 10:49 AM
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