yawn
ei world, eat your heart out! i just got home. *wink* details later.. thank you lord for banchetto. ^^
it's 2.19 pm. just woke up.
i discovered many things last night while i was out. i acknowledged the fact that i have a good life and i'm just being ungrateful because God took G out of my life.
i realized that i don't want to be in a committment right now. i can't give up my freedom no matter how lonely my life gets sometimes. i also realized that I can like a person but not enough to give up the things that i have now. not yet. just not yet.
what i need is a constant date. someone to hold hands with.. kiss with when i want to..be with when i want to.. all under one condition-- when i want to. it saddens me that im thinking that way now. i'm usually the security / committment freak who always believe that you need love before you get intimate with someone.
masarap maging single pero malungkot...
i enjoy just looking at the people around me. i was somewhere last night with a friend watching people walk by. just looking.. my mind wandering.. no specific topic.. my thoughts were floating and fleeting from one person to another. i enjoyed it a lot. just being with a good friend, my thoughts, and lots of food under the dark sky.
well..i was cruel last night to the extent that i made the person feel so out of place. we just dont think alike so i would always end up with sarcastic remarks. i feel bad that i was really mean-- but there's just no stopping me when im irritated.
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posted by jaded fool @ 6:06 AM
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