oh fcuk
I was out last night with Neth. I'm just thankful that i have a friend who's always willing and ready to lend an ear. yeah..we talked about her and the suitors. Neth said "ayaw mo sa kanila? at si G, gusto mo lahat ng ginagawa nya?". and I answered "I like everything about her..except when she breaks my heart." She just shook her head and said "Grabe mare, sobrang mahal mo sya.", which made me feel sad cause I know the love is one sided. Ewan. Adik no?
G has been occupying my head for two days now. I don't want her invading my thoughts and preoccupying my time cause I know i'm the only one doing it and i'm only the one who'd end up feeling bad. I don't want to but it's happening. it's irritating that i am once again losing control of my emotions. there's still spot of pain in my heart because thoughts are flooding me. she was in my dreams. I woke up a couple times but everytime i'd fell back to sleep-- i would still find her there.
Bought a book by Paulo Coelho last night entitled "by the river piedra i sat down and wept". this book hits a sore spot. i think its the reason behind the appearance(s) of G in my dreams. I'll put down some mushy moments once i get to finish the book, if ever i get to finish it. I feel like throwing it away..I want to burn it.. tear it apart or put it in the shelf. it made me remember..and that's the least thing i want to do now.
i don't want this pain anymore.
note to self: never follow the advice of katrina. she just suck at it.
Labels: book, just venting out, love
posted by jaded fool @ 11:19 AM
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