♥ break
i must be really depress to write everyday.
five days ago G walked in my life again. it was surprisingly good. to see her and talk to her again. things were not like the first time as she would constantly be on guard and defensive about her feelings. i thought my fairytale had finally arrived not in a white horse but in a maroon nissan sedan.
i wanted to take it slow and take the right steps so that things will be alright. but everything happened prematurely.. it was a cruel joke. we fucked up again. i fucked up again. she got hurt again. i am in quicksand that no matter how hard i try to get loose the more trap i become.
that guy who interviewed me at the Senate was right, do the right thing and everything else will follow. how come i did the right thing and ended up here? i want to come home. i want my home. i want a peaceful existence. and now it's all gone! all because i cannot break another person's heart.
maybe there is goodness in being alone.
maybe i deserve to be alone.
Labels: moments, relationships
posted by jaded fool @ 9:33 AM
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