Sunday, May 20, 2012

lazing

I want my break.. My work week is tiring ang stressing the hell out of me. I love to sleep but I never felt so deprived of it until this saturday. To top it all, I dozed off at 9pm on a saturday night!! I was planning to watch a movie but sleep just blew me away. I want to have a week of relaxation, nothing to think about..just me and my much needed rest. Of course I thinkk the beach is out of my list since summer is almost over.i want to be rejuvinated and be surrounded by beautiful and luxurious things. On a better note, I think I am okay.emotion wise, I have come face to face with the truth that the G is gone and will never come back. I'm good with that.i actually doubted myself that I am fine but it turned out true. I would even initiate conversations with her through texting or messsenger.. Eventually, I stopped it one by one. Nobody wants to feel stupid and when that constantly happens to you.. You push yourself to stop doing that what hurts you. And you unlearn to do things that you just acquire by time. Susan is right. I can do this. :) i maybe alone but definitely not lonely.loving myself is a great thing to do and I should do it regularly. I'm not fully recharged, but i'm ready to grind! Here's to a better life.:) cheers!

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