rants and ramblings

is it really important?

what's important in your relationship? Personally speaking.. the things that i value in a relationship are love, fidelity, romance, respect, laughter, cooperation, and communication. Although I believe that kissing and hugging and sex are just bonuses... I think they should not be the prime concern of a relationship. But what do you do when it becomes as important as Love?

I'm in trouble when it comes to that area, i must admit. My mind is too tired to focus on the task at hand.. and sometimes, my mind would wander and think of my troubles. I know the thing that I should be thinking about is the pleasure.. the sweat.. the moans and the groans. I don't have any reasonable excuse I guess, I simply suck at doing it. And now, my whole relationship is at the brink of falling apart because I cannot deliver. My partner has vocally pointed out that sex is as important as love to her. It left a mark not only in my heart but in my brain as well. I've been dwelling on it for hours now. This would probably the creme of the crop since our relationship is currently battling with bigger and heavier challenges.

I'm mature enough to accept that there's no such thing as a perfect relationship.. it's just that I never had a clue that my relationship would have trouble when it comes to sex. I can't even make my partner come or clime.. I do feel like a failure and a huge one at that.

I want to cure it. I want to find solution for it.. but my partner stopped believing in me. She stopped believing that we could actually resolve it. This is so depressing.. and I feel like choking myself.

Labels: love, relationships, sex