rants and ramblings

time capsule

P let me read her old letters.. the one that she had written and the ones that she had received. In those letters, I witnessed how much she had loved and lost. sucks to get hurt.. pain is argh.. and sometimes, whenever i am in pain-- i wish i was dead.

and today.. I browsed my mails and checked on G's folder. I know what you're going to say--but hey, it's my time capsule. I think I have the right to reminisce. The letters are my silent witnesses to the love that I once had. It reminded me how we used to be... how everything started.... and where everything led. I remembered how sweet she was -- i remembered how reluctant I was to take the plunge... I remembered being scared.

I don't know what got into me-- I just found myself reading our old mails. the ones that came from G and the ones that I sent her. We were happy. Our happiness seemed so endless.. We had a lot of good times too.. we play a lot.. we laugh a lot.. we were each other's best friend. I know her in and out (and I mean that literally)... then we started hurting each other... we hurt each other until we lost it...

Until that moment that she left me with no choice but to let go.

Labels: love, moments, reltionships