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hello blogger...
i was asleep a while ago.. but somehow i woke and found myself "unable" to go back to sleep. why don't i just write? i know that would definitely put me to sleep-- i get drowsy when i read my old entries. hehe. i wanted to go online but then i don't want to talk to nameless and faceless people.. i don't like what i feel.. ewan. naiinis ako. i want something new.. i want a new job.. i want a new place to trash... i just want that safehouse that could take me away from all my troubles. i want my nanay.. i want my old life back. i have this innate desire to run overseas... to run away from everything that surrounds me.. i want to make a life somewhere. i want my peace of mind.
i saw an old classmate at the train today. He's still the lousy guy that i knew from college. haha.. so after a brief musta musta.. and questions about life and career, we exchanged numbers. i hope i just made my network bigger.
this entry is heading nowhere. i went online in hope of finding G there. guess it's just one those unlucky days i guess.
i was out with my boylets early this evening. 2 bottles as usual. 2 na naging 3. i'm glad that C forced me to come with them tonight. it's been a while since i hanged out with them. and for a moment, i was able to get the troubles off my mind. pagod na ako. pagod na akong mag-isip kung pano ba maging superhero. i had fun being with my boylets... they make me laugh and treat me like a princess. minsan pa nga, hinahatid ako. kahit na lagi nila akong binubwisit.. i know i found a tropa in them. i love laughing with them.. and sharing stories with them. of course, i love eating their pulutan while they talk about girls. those nyakers!
hay, Lord. pano ba to?
life is what you make it. i think i made one hell of a mess with mine. shit no?
Labels: ikaw kasi, just venting out
posted by jaded fool @ 11:52 PM
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