bestfriend
throughout my lifetime, that is 33 years now...i've only had 3 bestfriends, aside from my Nanay.
my first bestfriend was CayCay.. she was our neighbor in Sta. Mesa. we play together, dream together and share common enemies. Sadly, we have to move out of Road 5 so we just have write each other. Then the coming of the mail just stopped. Our paths never crossed and the last news that I heard was she got impregnated.
I met my 2nd bestfriend when I was already in College. She was a classmate and a mentor. We learned through life together.. we faced problems in school, projects, pervert professors, relationships, and love. This is the phase of my life that I felt accepted by my peers. Years went on, our bond got stronger--we gained and lose friends together. She looked after me when I am outside our home. We were each other's confidant as we would grab some beer and talk about everything under the sun.. we cry when we feel like crying and laugh like children. Sadly, she had to live in another country. We continuously communicate with each other-- with her calling me every now and then. I know I hurt her when I stopped sharing my life with her.. when she comes to know about stuff when it all has passed. I know she doesn't approve of my choices but she stood by me. Well, she would still try to change my mind with such exasperation but at this point in time-- i don't think anybody could change it.
I consider G as my 3rd bestfriend. I don't think anybody knows me the way she does. She even knows the real meaning behind my words. We were in a relationship.. but more than that, we are friends. I know there were a lot of times that I was not there for her.. but she overlooked it.. She would always find a way to save my ass.. she would always find a way to be there for me. She was my mentor when I decided to take the exam. She's not afraid to correct my grammar or my pronunciation. Somehow, we would always know whats goin inside each other's head. When we broke up, I have not only lost her-- i also lost my bestfriend.
It is hard to lose significant people in your life. Either you leave or they leave you. That is precisely the reason why I wished that I would not lose people dear to me.
Somehow, my wish has been granted.
I did not have a grand celebration. In fact, it was just a quiet day. But just before my birthday ends.. I opened my mail and read Jane and G's greetings.. it warmed my heart.. and I thank God they remembered.
Labels: just venting out, love
posted by jaded fool @ 8:17 PM
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