in my head
when i was in the pool tonight, i was able to graze at the stars and suddenly i was in trance. being surrounded by water, i found my peace and i found my realization among the stars. there's not much of them but they are enough to brighten the dark sky. in the midst of the calming motion--- i pondered of my past and the direction of my life.
simple lang. i have to move forward. i can't let myself get stuck at something i know will never improve. i have to keep moving where the light is. and with the guidance of my family and friends, i know i will never be lost. i do not want to admit that my relationship with P was based on manipulation but the reality is, there was a strong indication of scheme and manipulation in that relationship. i am not a victim, i will never be.. cause after all these-- when all the smoke has gone, i will be victorious because i did the right thing.
love is felt. love is respect. love is loyalty. love is commitment. love is justice. love alone will not withstand a chance against challenges. and for years i fought for love alone... sacrificing respect, loyalty, commitment and justice along the way. and it hurt me more than i had ever imagined. nobody has the right to hurt me in this or any other way. the only person who has will never make me cry.
i have to be firm in moving on. remember but never to look back. i have a wonderful life ahead of me. and if it means travelling it alone.. then by all means. i will just have to enjoy the journey and the people that i will meet along the way.
it is hard but it can be done.
Labels: God is good, love, moments, relationships
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