sarcastically funny
The development with the G left me crying half of the way home. It was in the darkness that I decided to be still and just let everything go. I was able to talked to her before I reached home but it didn't change anything. Everything is the same. All is as it was. So I rested.. Slept the whole day.. Ate my meals amd slept some more. I dreamnt of her..in my dreams I plead and literally ran after her. But she was firm in her decision to put everything on a halt.
And just like everytime the G would make me feel this way-- the ex would suddenly pop out of the blue. I got messages from P, which I really dont care about. It's just the timing is funny and if I weren't feeling bad-- this would have been a laughing moment for me. I also got a message from the guy I met weeks ago in greenbelt asking me for a date.. Hmmm.. Not really bad at all, I am seriously considering dating this guy. He is scaring the shit out of me pero bahala na si batman. If the means would justify the ends.. Then so be it.
Naalala ko lang kanina na nung nakaraang taon.. Sa twing mawawala si G at magpaparamdam si P... Umiiyak ako habang nirereplyan ko si P. Iyak ng iyak dahil andun na naman ako. Tulad lang ng pag iyak ko nung panahon na iniisip ko kalimutan si G at magmahal ng iba. I cried coz I cant imagine myself loving another. Engs di ba? Naisip ko lang na nung panahon namin ni G, kahit wala kaming vows at sinasabi nya palagi akong wala.. At kung anu anu pang isyu, Alam ko binigay ko buong puso ko.
Hayaan nalang siguro. Sabi naman ni susan.. Magmamahal ako ulit, may magmamahal ulit sa akin.. May mga bagay palang kasi akong dapat ayusin.
Sana dumating na yun.
Labels: ikaw kasi, just venting out, relationships, self-love
posted by jaded fool @ 8:33 PM
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