Life changing
Change is the only permanent thing in the world.
As i sit on my bed, my mind wandering in the past. I have come to understand that experiences will change you. Heartbreaks, failures... They will mold you to become the person you are destined to be. You will meet people who will help you or mold you to become your present you. They may stay or they might leave.., but one thing is for sure, you will never be the same again.
I would like to believe that i haven't changed. That I am still the old connie.. But who am i kidding.. I have grown up. I have become resilient to the things around me. And no matter how hard i fought, i know my perspective on things have changed. But there are just things tht you don't outgrew. I still hate being left behind though.. I hate the feeling it brings. Deep inside i am still the girl who is idealistic and a sucker for happy endings. I am still afraid of rejection and things that are unknown.
I seldom take the risk cause i hate to lose/fail. And there is this one risk that i am about to take. And it means leaving my comfort zone. Leaving my family and be somewhere else. I am frightened to be in a foregin land. I know i would be taken cared of, i would be provided for.. Ewan.. There are so many things in my head.. What if it didnt work out? What if i belong here...? I still have time to decide.. Hopefully when the time comes for that change, i have made up my mind and i am a 100% sure of my decision. Sabi nga nila, ito yung desisyon na dapat kaya mong ipaglaban ng patayan.
Lord, ikaw lang nakakaalam kung saan ako nararapat at kung sino ang tao na para sa akin. I know you will guide me in this decision with your grace and light. Amen.
Labels: family, God is good, moments, relatuonships
posted by jaded fool @ 7:12 PM
