Thursday, June 18, 2009

how romantic am i?



i took a quiz and got this result:

You are the practical type, torn between prosaic and idealistic issues

In affairs of the heart, your romantic tendencies are tempered somewhat by common sense, probably painfully earned. You may have idealized a past partner only to be crushed by the utter lack of romance that eventually occurred. You sometimes catch yourself daydreaming about a romantic rendezvous, but you force yourself to snap out of it before things get too crazy. If someone offered to make the moves on you, you certainly wouldn't resist, but you might wonder if you'd forever be held up to that same standard. You know that life isn't a fairy tale, but you sometimes wish it could be. Don't fret. You may have your head in the clouds, but your feet are firmly planted on the ground. You feel that romance isn’t something to be taken lightly, although you’d make the effort for a special someone, and you’d certainly appreciate it if someone did the same for you. It’s just that those kinds of people don’t come along too often. But they do come along every once in a while, and when they do, come up with your own way to romance them rather than relying on the nearest florist.

--awwww..

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posted by jaded fool @ 7:30 AM  

Monday, June 15, 2009

unworthy



i've become unworthy of any second chances i think.
i don't want the pain that it brings anymore.
i long for that serenity and solace that i lost a year ago.
how could i hurt the people that i love the most?
i must get out i know.
though i feel trapped in the choices of my own doing.
sometimes, i just want to run away from it all.
leaving everything behind.
to start anew.
to be reborn.

i caused pain.
numerous amount of it.
a cycle of it.
sadly...
i've become unworthy.

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posted by jaded fool @ 8:05 AM  

Monday, June 08, 2009

everybody knows



Lyrics to Everybody Knows :
It gets harder everyday but I can’t seem to shake the pain
I am tryna find the word to say please stay
It’s written all over my face
I can’t function the same when you’re not here
Calling your name when no ones there
And I hope one day you’ll see

(Chorus)
No body has it easy
I still can’t believe you
Found somebody new
But I wish you the best
I guess
‘Cause everybody knows that
Nobody really knows how to make it work
Or how to ease the hurt
We’ve heard it all before and
Everybody knows just how to make it right
I wish we gave it one more try
One more try, try (one more try)
One more try, try (one more try)
‘cause everybody knows
But no body really knows

Oh ooh yeah

I don’t care what the people say
If I’ll be lonely anyway
Baby don’t fill up your head with he said she said
It seems like you just don’t know (don’t know)
The radio goes you’re tuning me up
Am trying to speak you’re turning me down
And I know one day you’ll see

(Chorus)

I wish that you would understand
I’m just an ordinary man
I wish that we had known
Everybody knows that nobody really knows
And I know one day you’ll see
Nobody has it easy

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posted by jaded fool @ 9:20 PM  

Saturday, June 06, 2009

swipe that card



since i'm quite depress today, i decided to cheer myself up. i bought a wireless router and flash disks using my ever reliable cc. hehe.. i thought it could take my mind off everything but the installation process was so easy i had it fixed at no time at all. i also got some trivial stuff (something not really needed). i just love my cc!

my mind kept on wandering.. it would've been great.. it would've been a wonderful story.. but i guess it's just not for me.

on our way home i told tatay bout my decision to go back to school. yep.. i want to take a masteral course. he said: yan matagal ko ng gustong marinig sayo, hindi yung puro ka gimik. i got a mixed feeling; i was both embarrassed and happy. Embarrassed cause since i started working all i ever do is drink. i'm happy cause i am definitely going back to school. so now, i'm looking for that course and i will look for my new school.

something good must come out of this horrendous and traumatic experience.

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posted by jaded fool @ 8:06 PM  

hay pride..



ei world.. was out tonight. the things that transpired today were just too much for me to handle. R brought me home and we had a nightcap with him doing all the drinking and me lending my deaf ear.

been thinking the whole day about what G did-- and i've come to realize that she was just after vindication. and i gave her that opportunity, stupid stupid me. i should have never listened to my heart; it brought me nothing but trouble and pain. such misery.. hayy..

so yeah, i drank myself senseless tonight and smoked like there's no tomorrow. good thing my boyfriends are always available for two bottles. C told me i should be glad that things happened the way they did-- cause it meant redemption from the fires of hell. He said that it's time for me to change and it is actually the holy spirit who made things this way. And because I was smoking too much he said I am stupid for trying to kill myself. R then said that they would give me a eulogy. I asked them about it and they started humming "Buloy". mga sira ulo.

what's the relationship between the title and the body of the entry? wala. R and I were just talking about life, love and pride. on how stupid pride can be.. told him i don't have any because i don't want to regret anything.

i'm really sleepy now blogger and i need to get up early tomorrow. so i am hitting the sack. i'm brushing everything off (again) and pretended nothing happened. so goodnight! muwah!

earlier i heard this song and it reminded me of G. today i realized how important vengeance for her is. so listen and enjoy the music. love the piano.. i am posting the lyrics as well so you could sing-along. have fun!



Without You (Accoustic Piano) - After Image

I know it’s over now
I can’t believe we’re through
If this is what you need
There’s nothin’ I can do

But where am I to go
What have I to choose

Rememberin’ our days
Just makes me want to cry
We tried so hard I know
But still we said goodbye

So where am I to go
What have I to choose
When I built my world around you

[chorus]
Gotten used to see your smile
Hear you whisper late at night
Now, I’ve nothin’ left to lose
‘Cause I know I’m without you

If only fate were kind
Then I’d be holding you
And we’d be like before
But destiny was cruel

So where am I to go
And what have I to choose
When I built my world around you

[repeat chorus]

Hoh
Without you, woh

[bridge]
Without you, there’s no sunshine
Without you, only rain
And if there is tomorrow
I hope to ease my pain
Ease my pain

[repeat chorus]

I know it’s over now

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posted by jaded fool @ 2:22 AM  

Friday, June 05, 2009



sometimes i wish i'm dead.. you know? nothing you do ever matters and you feel irrelevant, immaterial and obstinate. when that happens i wish for that peace that only dead people enjoy.

sometimes i wish i'm dead...

just like now.

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posted by jaded fool @ 1:10 PM