Friday, January 18, 2013

letting it pass

Im learning not to do anything. just to sit on my hands when im tempted to do something about my feelings. i miss her but i will not do anything about it. i dreamnt of her and i got worried.. enough to make me get my phone and draft a message.

i did not send it. i deleted it slowly..word per word.. probably the wind will just bring it to her. and for now its enough.

i miss you from the bottom of my heart.

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Thursday, January 17, 2013

you and i

always be...

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Wednesday, January 16, 2013

baon

loots!
last week, i went to work having these in my bag. hehe. It's my first time to have cuervo.. and i discovered that I am allergic to it. sucks...so i didn't finish the whole bottle.. I brought home the remainder, stock in in the cabinet to await my return. hehe.

kampai! :)

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Tuesday, January 08, 2013

music

is the language of my heart. i had a tough start this morning.. and i promised myself for the 100000000000th time that i will never let anything like that happen again. i am trying really hard to ignore these emotions. i just lose it when it comes to her. she could easily rile me and hurt me. all at the same time. it pisses me off that even after all these years, she can still easily make me cry.

so i turn to music. i wrap myself to its magic.. hoping the balm will simply work and let me forget. each time, i remind myself i have to try harder. i have to breath deeply and shake it off.

 no matter which way i see it, i am the one in the losing end. anyway, i'll be turning 12 years old with blogger tomorrow. Happy anniversary dear journal. :)


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Sunday, January 06, 2013

my domesticated weekend

It's the first weekend of 2013 and spent it working on some document, tinkering my stuff, cooking and sleeping. I've always been a sucker for sleep so i make sure every weekend i have my 8 hrs ++ of sleep..siesta included. Saturday is my sleep day though i still wake up at around 6.30am to have breakfast with tatay..i spend my day in bed reading..sleeping. I always wash the dishes at night during weekends cauae ate is tired from work.. I also drop her off to work and i cook to give tatay a break. Sometimes i miss the inspiration to cook for someone. I would always pretend that ill be having a visitor so i van push my butt to crush some garlic or saute some onions. Tonight is one of those days.. And i decided to prepare some baby back ribs. It's my first time to prepare a marinade and it felt like i was conducting an orchestra. I am not even sure if what i was doing would be palatable. I crushed and rubbed like there's no tommorow.. With a roleplay in my head. It was fun.. Then it was lonely when its over. Just like that. I miss this simple joy of preparing food for someone special. I really do.

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Saturday, January 05, 2013

ponder this

You have to get hurt. That's howyou learn. The strongest people out there, the ones who laugh the hardest with a genuine smile, those are the people who have fought the toughest battles. Because they've decided that they're not going to let anything hold them down, they're showing the world who's the boss.---Leslie (Vietnam).

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one-liner
Umarte ng ayon sa angking ganda!

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Wednesday, January 02, 2013

2013: year of the water snake

This is my sign.
Fire signs, which are Aries, Leo and Sagittarius, can count on new acquaintances and opportunities. But trying their luck they should act very decisively, astrologist Tamara Yudina says.

As to my personality, it is wise to remember this:


The Sign of the Snake
People born in the Year of the Snake share certain characteristics:  Acute, aware, charming, cunning, elegant, mysterious, passionate, proud, serene, and vain. They are attractive people who take cries with ease and do not become flustered easily.  They are graceful people, exciting and dark at the same time.  They enjoy reading, listening to great music, tasting delicious food, and going to the theater.  They are fascinated with all beautiful things in life.  Many of the most beautiful ladies and men with strongest personalities were born in the Year of the Snake.
Contemplative and private, Snake people are not outwardly emotional.  They usually act according to their own judgment and do not follow the views of others. They can appear cunning and reticent and work very modestly in the business environment.  They will plot and scheme to make certain things turn out exactly as they want them to.  They are not great communicators and can become quite possessive when they set their minds on achieving the interest of a partner.
Snake people become easily stressed and have to avoid hectic schedules or noisy atmospheres.  They need calm and quiet to thrive and succeed.  They must have sleep, relaxation, and peace  to live a long, healthy life.
People born in the Year of the Snake are usually very sophisticated and cultured in their choices for home decoration.  They are elegant and graceful and place emphasis on their comfort when deciding what to decorate with.  They are materialistic and need to have as many of everything as possible.
They become bored easily and therefore change jobs quite frequently.  They are very conscientious and diligent at work.  They are organized and precise, cautious and alert when doing business.  They act confidently, calmly and have a strong sense of responsibility and clear goals. Sometimes, because they like to work alone, they can seem as though they are withholding information or being secretive about some important things.
Snake people are oversuspicious, which is their nature.  They hide their suspicion, and acting as if nothing is on their minds.  They like to think deeply, plan carefully and make a systematic and appropriate exposition of their views. They like to follow the fashion and be properly dressed. And, they usually speak with great care.
Snake people are passionate lovers and show a strong desire for control when associating with others.  They will never forgive anyone who breaks a promise.  They show their resentment with ice-cold hostility instead of bitter words.  Some of the people born in the Year of the Snake may strike their enemies with a deadly blow.
It seems not easy to deal with a person born in the Year of the Snake, especially when he thinks one way and behaves in another.  There always lies an alert heart behind his serene appearance.  He has a strong will and will try his best to hold fast to his position.  He is so cunning that when you think you may have seized him, he has already slipped away.
Snake people will face danger fearlessly and deal with unforeseen disasters. They are not annoyed by lack of money and are usually lucky enough to own everything they need.  They can be successful as long as they avoid excess spending.  Although they are intuitive, they should avoid dive right into decisions without weighing the consequences.
Famous Snake People:  Anne Rice, Ann-Margret,  Audrey Hepburn, Christie Brinkley, Elizabeth Hurley, Grace Kelly, Jacqueline Kennedy, Kim Basinger, Linda McCartney, Liv Tyler,  Oprah Winfrey, Queen Elizabeth I, Sarah Michelle Gellar, and Sarah Jessica Parker.
Snake Years:  02/04/1905 to 01/24/1906 (Wood), 01/23/1917 to 02/10/1918 (Fire), 02/10/1929 to 01/29/1930 (Earth), 01/27/1941 to 02/14/1942 (Metal), 02/14/1953 to 02/02/1954 (Water), 02/21/1965 to 01/20/1966 (Wood), 02/18/1977 to 02/06/1978 (Fire), 02/06/1989 to 01/26/1990 (Earth), 01/24/2001 to 02/11/2002 (Metal), 02/10/2013 to 01/30/2014 (Water).

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