rants and ramblings: September 2010

rule no. 3

tawanan mo ang iyong problema. hehehe.

Labels: God is good, one liners

posted by jaded fool @ 9:36 AM

rule no. 2

kung may shota ka na puro problema, mas mahusay pa na mag-isa.

hehe.

Labels: funny, God is good

posted by jaded fool @ 9:55 AM

rule no. 1

separate your private life from your professional life so when your private life got fucked up--it won't affect the other.

Labels: one liners

posted by jaded fool @ 11:19 AM

wanted: metro aide

i will clean this mess. still figuring out how but i shall do whatever it takes to pursue my dreams and live the life i have always wanted by the grace of God.

i deserve that.

Labels: God is good

posted by jaded fool @ 9:23 PM

undouble

as far as i could remember, i always wanted to be attached-- to be in a relationship. well i've never really gotten into a serious one until i was 26. i never thought i'd wanted to be single again. until now. my freedom doesn't come for free. it came with a price that is way too high.

Labels: just venting out

posted by jaded fool @ 9:53 PM

No budget for 733 govt lawyers - INQUIRER.net, Philippine News for Filipinos

ngek!

No budget for 733 govt lawyers - INQUIRER.net, Philippine News for Filipinos

- demmit, they need 733 prosecutors at the DOJ. I want to be a prosecutor.. hire me! hehe.

posted by jaded fool @ 9:03 PM

woot

dear Lord,

thank you i survived this day. :)

love,

me

Labels: God is good

posted by jaded fool @ 7:58 PM

think about this

it is true that pain erases love. for many months now, i felt myself falling out... sometimes i think everything was just a part of a devious scheme. along the way, i learned that respect is very important. it is something as equally important as love. when a person respects you-- they accept you for who you are, and somehow love will eventually grow out of it. that's how it works.

the problem is i let them rob me of my self-respect. although i still believe in love and the colors that it brings, i also learned that love alone will not make you happy. :p indeed, love can be shown in a thousand of ways.. and sometimes, when you are just unlucky, you would feel love in the most painful way.

sometimes we are left with no choice. it is either you do it or you hurt someone. sometimes when it is really shitty, its either you do it or you do it.

my life has not been easy this past two years. i have been subjected to a lot of abuses: verbal, mental and emotional. But i have to act like what a grown up should and face things on my own. i have to be strong for myself or else suffer the rest of my life in a mental institution. i believe that i have never shown strength and courage of this magnitude before. but as a human, i grow tired. i get weak and weary. it is during these times that I miss my Nanay the most. I want to know what she had to say on these matters.. i want her hug and her reassuring smile that things will be okay.

guess its true that selfishness is the other side of love. guess which side i'm on.

Labels: just venting out, love, relationships

posted by jaded fool @ 12:32 AM

ironic

I got this mail last monday.

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somehow along the way, I forgot to turn this thing off. Ironic isn't it?

Labels: just venting out, love, relationships

posted by jaded fool @ 9:02 AM

L.A.

I had a dream, in it were my ninang gaying and co-worker. We were in LA. and I remember feeling excited.. I woke up feeling off cause I wanted it to be real. Probably, I just dont want to be here anymore.. and I feel that I should go live somewhere else.

I hope it is one dream that I could pursue and fulfill.

Labels: dreams, moments

posted by jaded fool @ 1:12 PM

driving insane

whenever i am behind the wheel.. i always imagine myself hitting someone, or i see myself turtle-turn while inside the vehicle.. or just see myself in an accident. i know it's weird but that's how its been for months now. i really don't know the psyche behind those thoughts but they are really creeping me out.

tonight i had those thoughts again.. but a conclusion easily came with it-- i probably died in a car accident during my past life. it is not conclusive but then it gives me the answer in the meantime.

to all you reckless tricycle (often overpricing aholes as well), trucks (sleepy or high on illegal drugs), bus (pain in the ass..), slow, idiotic drivers out there....FU all! hehe

Labels: just venting out

posted by jaded fool @ 1:18 AM

system error

i tried not writing about the luneta hostage taking incident.. i saw everything on tv, laughed at our stupid policemen and went into shock when it all ended in tragedy. it was like a comedy of errors.

the demand was simple, a resolution on the motion for consideration. it is the job of the Ombudsman to resolve cases pending before them.. and it is their obligation to update the person following-up the case. This is what you get for not even answering his letters.

It made me sad listening to his voice. In it I sense hope, then frustration,anger, and helplessness. It could've been prevented.. really. It must have been hard for his family to listen to all those radio interview-- hearing his voice, explaining his side and how badly he wanted his name cleared.

there is truth in the saying that justice delayed is justice denied. kaya bukas, magda-draft na ako.

I hope his soul will be at peace.

Labels: just venting out, politics, work related angst

posted by jaded fool @ 6:38 PM

my room

today while on our way to hear mass, i remembered my room. it's barely a room, it's more of a walk in closet. nevertheless, it has a single bed in it, cabinets, an electric fan, a television and a window. i used to share this room with G and then P. now, i have the room all by myself.

When I had to stay somewhere in Malolos, I missed the confines of this room-- the silence and the time for me to think over things. This is one realization about me-- I need my time alone. I have to get that-- so I can rest my mind.. and just be with myself.

I did wonder whether I'll spend all my life in this room alone-- or if its really made for one. i just want to fill it with laughter-- and with its size, there is really not much to fill.

Labels: just venting out, love

posted by jaded fool @ 7:21 PM

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