rants and ramblings

What I am to you, you do not need

What I am to you is not what you mean to me

You give me miles and miles of mountains

And I'll ask for the sea

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someone like you

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someday..

i'll sing this for the person who courageously took the risk to love me and luckily gets my love in return. :) until then..AJA!

Labels: love, songs

alone again & free

another old song that i heard ages ago.. this is probably the closest i could express the way i am feeling now.

enjoy!

Labels: just venting out, songs

one day

super duper old song that i heard on the radio today . but it has good music, melody and lyrics. the instant that i heard it, i knew i got hear it again. :) listen up and enjoy! i think this youtube file has lyrics in it, so if you feel like singing along.. go ahead. :)

Labels: moments, songs

everybody knows

Lyrics to Everybody Knows :
It gets harder everyday but I can’t seem to shake the pain
I am tryna find the word to say please stay
It’s written all over my face
I can’t function the same when you’re not here
Calling your name when no ones there
And I hope one day you’ll see

(Chorus)
No body has it easy
I still can’t believe you
Found somebody new
But I wish you the best
I guess
‘Cause everybody knows that
Nobody really knows how to make it work
Or how to ease the hurt
We’ve heard it all before and
Everybody knows just how to make it right
I wish we gave it one more try
One more try, try (one more try)
One more try, try (one more try)
‘cause everybody knows
But no body really knows

Oh ooh yeah

I don’t care what the people say
If I’ll be lonely anyway
Baby don’t fill up your head with he said she said
It seems like you just don’t know (don’t know)
The radio goes you’re tuning me up
Am trying to speak you’re turning me down
And I know one day you’ll see

(Chorus)

I wish that you would understand
I’m just an ordinary man
I wish that we had known
Everybody knows that nobody really knows
And I know one day you’ll see
Nobody has it easy

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hay pride..

ei world.. was out tonight. the things that transpired today were just too much for me to handle. R brought me home and we had a nightcap with him doing all the drinking and me lending my deaf ear.

been thinking the whole day about what G did-- and i've come to realize that she was just after vindication. and i gave her that opportunity, stupid stupid me. i should have never listened to my heart; it brought me nothing but trouble and pain. such misery.. hayy..

so yeah, i drank myself senseless tonight and smoked like there's no tomorrow. good thing my boyfriends are always available for two bottles. C told me i should be glad that things happened the way they did-- cause it meant redemption from the fires of hell. He said that it's time for me to change and it is actually the holy spirit who made things this way. And because I was smoking too much he said I am stupid for trying to kill myself. R then said that they would give me a eulogy. I asked them about it and they started humming "Buloy". mga sira ulo.

what's the relationship between the title and the body of the entry? wala. R and I were just talking about life, love and pride. on how stupid pride can be.. told him i don't have any because i don't want to regret anything.

i'm really sleepy now blogger and i need to get up early tomorrow. so i am hitting the sack. i'm brushing everything off (again) and pretended nothing happened. so goodnight! muwah!

earlier i heard this song and it reminded me of G. today i realized how important vengeance for her is. so listen and enjoy the music. love the piano.. i am posting the lyrics as well so you could sing-along. have fun!


Without You (Accoustic Piano) - After Image

Labels: just venting out, moments, relationships, songs

kanta ng no strings attached

this is really an old song. i heard it on the radio last night on my way home. it reminded me of my childhood, which is a favorite phase of my life. when i heard it, images of tatay and saudi arabia came in mind. it's just now that i get to read and understand its lyrics. such a wonderful music on weather like this. enjoy!


I Wanna be Free
By Tommy Boyce and Bobby Hart

I wanna be free,
Like the bluebirds flying by me
Like the waves out on the blue sea.
If your love has to tie me,
don't try me,Say good-bye.

I wanna be free,
Don't say you love me say you like me,
But when I need you beside me,
Stay close enough to guide me, confide in
me,Oh-oh-oh

I wanna hold yur hand,
Walk along the sand
Laughing in the sun,
Always having fun
Doing all those things
Without any strings
To tie me down.

I wanna be free,
Like the warm September wind, babe,
Say you'll always be my friend, babe.
We can make it to the end, babe,
Again, babe, I gotta say:
I wanna be free
I wanna be free
I wanna be free

I wanna Be Free - The Monkees

ps: sa kantang yan pakiramdam ko ang tanda ko na. grabe, ang haba ng mayo sana matapos na siya. di na kasi ako natutuwa.

Labels: moments, songs

soapdish

Tensionado - Soapdish

Labels: love, relationships, songs

uto-uto ka kasi

ang balak ko talagang isulat dito ay kung paano ko nairaos ang mahal na araw, kung paano iba siya sa lahat ng mahal na araw na pinagdaanan namin, kung gaano kahirap ang bisita iglesia at kung paano kami nagtagpo (pagkalipas ng 2 taon) ng aking inaanak na si asher. pero naiba ang plano.

naiba ito kagabi nung biglang dumating si G sa bahay namin. nagulat ako, ni sa hinagap hindi ko naisip na babalik siya samin. magdadapit-hapon na ng dumating siya. nakahiga ako nuon sa kwarto at naghahanap ng mapapanuod sa TV.

Nung makita ko siya, naalala ko na naman yung palagi kong kinukwento kay E nun. Sabi ko sa kanya, sa isip ko "two old friends meet again" ang drama ko. Di ako mapakali.. naisip ko yung mga panahon na nagdadasal ako... naalala ko yung mga panahon na naalala ko siya.

mahirap sa una-- nangangapa ako.. pero lumaon naging komportable na. Natuwa ako sa lahat ng magandang bagay na nangyari sa kanya.

Nagkausap kami tungkol sa mga lugar na napuntahan niya, sa mga lugar na napuntahan ko.. tungkol sa landas na tinahak naming magkahiwalay. Akala ko dun magiiba ang istorya. Hindi pala. Mali ako.

Sabi ni E, hopeless romantic daw ako.

Pakiramdamdam ko, tanga tanga ko. Hindi naman talaga kasi totoo ang fairy tale.

Labels: just venting out, moments, relationships, songs

if i were a boy..

BCJean - If I Were A Boy

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beneath the surface

by: incognito

Here I sit and watch the crowds go by
Papa da papa papa yeah
But there's only one face I can see
If only they would understand
Papa da papa papa yeah
I'd open the door and let him in

Chorus:
How long can I hide, what I'm feeling inside
My love is a river, that's got to make its way into sea
This feeling can't hide, Lord knows I've tried
Beneath the surface
Beneath the surface

I try, though I know I'm hanging on a string
Papa da papa papa yeah
You're the only one thing on my mind
Keeps floating to a distant shore
Papa da papa papa yeah
As I go on denying myself

Chorus

Oh, keeps turning round in my mind
Oh, round and round in my mind

Here I sit and watch the crowds go by
Papa da papa papa yeah
But there's only one face I can see

Chorus x 2

--->>> anybody got the mp3 of this song? please drop me a line and i'll get in touch with you ASAP. ^^ I would really appreciate it. swear.

Labels: songs

goodbye girl

DAVID GATES lyrics - "Goodbye Girl"

All your life you've waited
For love to come and stay
And now that I have found you
You must not slip away
I know it's hard believin'
The words you've heard before
But darlin' you must trust them just once more
'Cause baby, goodbye doesn't mean forever
Let me tell you
Goodbye doesn't mean
We'll never be together again
If you wake up and I'm not there
I won't be long away
'Cause the things you do my goodbye girl
Will bring me back to you

I know you've been taken
Afraid to hurt again
You fight the love you feel for me
Instead of givin' in
But I can wait forever
Helping you to see
That I was meant for you and you for me

So remember, goodbye doesn't mean forever
Let me tell you goodbye
Doesn't mean we'll never be together again
Though we may be so far apart
You still will have my heart
So forget your past my goodbye girl
'Cause now you're home at last

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there's no easy way

I held her close to me
'Cause I know she breaks so easily
And then I told her
But I knew no matter how I tried to console her
She'd just do the best she could
But there are times the best is no damn good
And no matter how you try to be kind
There's always still a part of you you leave behind
When it falls apart
There's no easy way to break somebody's heart

I lied and told her she'd be fine
Though we both knew it was just a line
I had to do it
'Cause I'd a' said anything to help me get through it
Then she reached out for my hand
And her simple touch was more than I could stand
And I had to turn away
'Cause I knew all the hurt
That she was feeling I was feeling too
'Cause when it falls apart
There's no easy way to break somebody's heart

She could've gotten angry
And made me feel like a guilty child
But I realized that never was her style
I wanted her to hurt me
And not treat me like a friend
I wanted her to say there'd be someday
I'd come crawling on my knees to ask her back again
But she acted like a lady 'til the end
Oh, what a lady

I thought that she'd break down
But she smiled at me and never made a sound
And I guess she understood in her way
'Cause her silence told me everything she could not say
When it falls apart
There's just no easy way
There's just no easy way
There's no easy way to break somebody's heart


*~*
indeed.. how can you break somebody's heart without ever inflicting pain? You can not prevent it even if you don't want to. I thought I'm going to be fine.. she assured me that I'm going to be fine.. and I will be. Eventually... if not anytime soon. It is hard to go back to the way I was.. but unless I do something about it.. I would continously cry over her.. mope with my brokenheart.. asking God why it happened.. Asking for answers that's already right in my face.

We are simply not meant to be.

People come and go in our lives. Some people are with us for a brief instant, for five days or for fifty or more years. The impact of these relationships on our lives can all be great. What we've learned is that if a relationship isn't working out, it is not a bad thing or a failure that our society likes to label it. It just may be that you have learned what it is that you were supposed to learn by being in a relationship with that other person and it's time to move on to other "lessons." My lesson with her is over.. I have accepted that. The bottomline of it all is that I have to be strong for myself.. otherwise, i would never be over this.

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