Sunday, March 10, 2013
16 days to go
It's 16 days before i turn a year older. today i spent it with family.. we heard mss.. had lunch.. and i got a home service massage. twas a good day when a shithead almost ruined it for me.. so i am writing this bs a letter:
dear bitch, you're not my boss and im not your staff so you dont have business in calling or texting me on a weekend about work and certainly not to ask for a fucking appointment with me. you have to wait till i see my calendar first. your manner speaks of your character. i pity your parents.
me,
goddess.
pardon me blogger.. the heat is getting on my nerves. i need to let that out. lol
Labels: hatelist, i am pissed, work related angst
posted by jaded fool @ 9:22 PM
Wednesday, April 04, 2012
supervising med-arb
Hi blogger, just woke up from a straight 8 hr slumber. My trip to koronadal was so stressful.. I almost got left behind, I got an excess baggage, and I was overly hungry. When I got there I was surprised that my designation had become a supervising med-arb. I laughed. I was not aware that I got promoted. Sure my responsibilities doubled or tripled even, but I thought it was so because I have to assist my boss.
Oh well.. I believe I have become more responsible in my work and finally, i've matured professionally.
On a not so light note, I am becoming anxious and frustrated with this so-called friendship with the G. She'd just call or see me when see feels like it... And I can't do the same to her. At times, she'd just ignore me.. Not even texting back... And i'd feel stupid cause I unintentionally wait for her. Ewan.. It's probably me.. Or her.. Or the world!sana lang i'd stop waiting. I don't want to wait anymore, I don't want to anticipate.. I dont want to get excited anymore. Cause in the end, I believe i'm the only one suffering and get into trouble. True, I do miss her a lot. True, I miss her company..our talks and a lot of stuff too. In truth, I am missing her so much now. And it sucks I can't do anything about it. :/
Labels: i am pissed, just venting out, love, travel, work related angst
posted by jaded fool @ 5:49 AM
Sunday, December 04, 2011
sunday morning
i just spent half of the night waiting for G. sleeping but subconsciously waiting. it's been raining last night-- what if she comes? i want to be awake so i can open the door fast. but she didn't. so here i am, lacking sleep and feeling shitty.
but there were signs. i just chose to ignore them. just like the way she ignored me. so why did i still wait? cause in my stupid head i thought i am worthy of her time. so much for someone so insignificant. i am hurt and it's all my fault i didn't listen to the warnings. why do i have to be so effing stubborn? how could i ever forget not to play with fire? so alright, i'll say this again.. i brought this to myself. this is something i felt and did on my own. i have to own responsibility for it.
i have lost her too many times in the past and if she doesn't want me in her life...i think i can handle it one more time.
in this world where only a few matters, i don't think my presence or absence makes any difference in her life.
time to do what is right. i am letting it slide.
Labels: i am pissed, ikaw kasi, just venting out
posted by jaded fool @ 7:51 AM
Monday, November 21, 2011
kablam!
dear koni, how stupid can you get? your fairy tales have brought you nothing but misery. why didn't you protect yourself?? how can you let this happen to you again? hindi ka na natuto. nakakainis ka. ang bobo mo.
Labels: i am pissed, ikaw kasi
posted by jaded fool @ 3:54 PM
Friday, November 11, 2011
stop asking me
i hate it when they started asking questions about the G cause i really do not know what to answer. I just hope they'd leave me alone and take her absence whatever way they like. I really don't need that kind of shit right now.
E was right. and I hate when she's right and I am wrong. Fuck.
I feel like pulling my hair out of my head. really..
Labels: i am pissed
posted by jaded fool @ 3:45 AM
